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SKY5
good luck with everything, I cant wait for you to come back and blog full time, you seem so much happier, I am so proud of you
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 25, 2004 at 8:58 AM
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I COME OFTEN, BUT WRONG HOURS BECAUSE I AM WORKING ALL
THE TIME. NEXT YEAR I WILL BE MORE FREE, BECAUSE I Am planning a business,
posted by
Star5_
on November 25, 2004 at 8:55 AM
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excellent SKY5
I am so happy for you, I have missed you
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 25, 2004 at 8:53 AM
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I AM HOME IN DE, KIDS ARE FINE, EVEN JAY IS BEING SO NORMAL
WE ARE HAVING GREAT DAY SO FAR
posted by
Star5_
on November 25, 2004 at 8:51 AM
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SKY5
hello and how are you?
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 25, 2004 at 8:46 AM
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Hello Symphony, love to my babes..
posted by
Star5_
on November 25, 2004 at 7:01 AM
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neamer
thank you ever so much for that lovely comment....thank you so much
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 21, 2004 at 2:24 AM
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tremacc your right
thank you
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 21, 2004 at 2:22 AM
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amazman
thank you for reading
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 21, 2004 at 2:22 AM
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WHAMENATOR
thank you
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 21, 2004 at 2:21 AM
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katray, thank you ever so much
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 21, 2004 at 2:21 AM
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sarooster
thank you so much
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 21, 2004 at 2:20 AM
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RachelAnna yes, it is hard
thank you so much for your support
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 21, 2004 at 2:20 AM
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AnnAndBenjamin
thanks
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 21, 2004 at 2:19 AM
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Just read ...
A TEAR AND A SMILE
I would not exchange the sorrows of my heart for the joys of the multitude. And I would not have the tears that sadness makes to flow from my every part turn into laughter.
I would that my life remain a tear and a smile. A tear to purify my heart and give me understanding of life's secrets and hidden things. A smile to draw me nigh to the sons of my kind and to be a symbol of my glorification of the gods.
A tear to unite me with those of broken heart; a smile to be a sign of my joy in existence. I would rather that I died in yearning and longing than that I live weary and despairing.
I want the hunger for love and beauty to be in the depths of my spirit, for I have seen those who are satisfied the most wretched of people. I have heard the sigh of those in yearning and longing, and it is sweeter than the sweetest melody.
With evening's coming the flower folds her petals and sleeps, embracing her longing. At morning's approach she opens her lips to meet the sun's kiss. The life of a flower is longing and fulfilment.
A tear and a smile.
The waters of the sea become vapor and rise and come together and area cloud. And the cloud floats above the hills and valleys until it meets the gentle breeze, then falls weeping to the fields and joins with brooks and rivers to return to the sea, its home. The life of clouds is a parting and a meeting.
A tear and a smile.
And so does the spirit become separated from the greater spirit to move in the world of matter and pass as a cloud over the mountain of sorrow and the plains of joy to meet the breeze of death and return whence it came.
To the ocean of Love and Beauty----to God.
by Kahlil Gibran 
Peace.
posted by
neamer
on November 20, 2004 at 11:00 PM
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Don't you believe it.
Keep moving forward. This is his pill to swallow, not yours.
posted by
Tremac
on November 20, 2004 at 9:41 PM
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so sorry Symph
posted by
amazman
on November 20, 2004 at 9:34 PM
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SYMPH...stay strong! Do not buckle!!!
I am sorry for your pain.
Wham 
posted by
WHAMENATOR
on November 20, 2004 at 7:00 PM
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Hello Symphony. How horrible and sad.
You don't deserve this, he sounds very cruel and strung out. Thoughts and hugs for your continued strength and the battles ahead. Take care dear friend.
posted by
Katray2
on November 20, 2004 at 5:35 PM
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This has to be very hard on you. I can feel for you.
I think you are correct to not want anyone in your life who is abusive.
posted by
sarooster
on November 20, 2004 at 5:22 PM
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I hope you're feeling better--
Dealing with people who have a drinking problem really sucks because you just never know what you are going to get. I'm sorry he called you and was abusive.
posted by
RachelAnna
on November 20, 2004 at 3:10 PM
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Time will render
you insensitive to the past.
Patience is a great virtue.
Ben
posted by
A-and-B
on November 20, 2004 at 2:29 PM
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KlaraRoberts thank you
I really appreciate it
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 20, 2004 at 2:00 PM
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You're welcome, sweetie! There are many of us on here who have survived
these types of relationships. If you want us, we're available!
posted by
KlaraRoberts
on November 20, 2004 at 1:52 PM
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KlaraRoberts yeah thats true, if he thought it did not hurt, he would not
bother!
thank you...
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 20, 2004 at 1:49 PM
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That's why he does it, Symph. He knows your weaknesses. Those
closest to us can hurt us most deeply. What he's doing is emotionally abusive. I know it's difficult, but if he thinks it doesn't hurt you, only then will he stop. I'm speaking from experience.
posted by
KlaraRoberts
on November 20, 2004 at 1:39 PM
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thank you so much everybody
you are so kind to me...
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 20, 2004 at 1:38 PM
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Justsouno
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 20, 2004 at 1:38 PM
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David_S you are so kind
thank you so much
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 20, 2004 at 1:37 PM
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Symphony
You got it!
posted by
Justi
on November 20, 2004 at 1:37 PM
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beachbelle
thank you...you are right.....he did blow it and that is what is amking him so angry in the first place
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 20, 2004 at 1:37 PM
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mary_x ...you really do understand I can feel it
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 20, 2004 at 1:36 PM
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KlaraRoberts
I know...but the truth hurts....he is so mean and he needs proper professional help...he brings up things like my childhood when I was sexually abused...and tells me I am sick....
that hurts so much..
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 20, 2004 at 1:35 PM
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poeticspoken ...thank you
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 20, 2004 at 1:34 PM
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Dear Symphony
I feel for you . And I hope you don't let him get to you again, ever
If you don't need him for anything, maybe you can change your phone #
I only have the highest regards for you and your children
You are truly 1 of the best here in Blogitville
Love always.....................David
posted by
David_S
on November 20, 2004 at 1:33 PM
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Symphony
Somehow you have to learn to give him no power by which I mean that you need to remember when he calls and says these things that he is lashing out at you because HE has blown it.
posted by
beachbelle
on November 20, 2004 at 1:33 PM
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Oh, boy,
I've been there, done that, bought the memorial t-shirt. I have tried "rescuing" men and gotten pulled in over my head. Never again. Keep swimming.
posted by
Blanche.
on November 20, 2004 at 1:31 PM
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My heart bleeds for you Symph. Remember though, he can only upset you
if you allow him too. Stay strong, girl!
posted by
KlaraRoberts
on November 20, 2004 at 1:31 PM
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I hope you feel better real soon.
posted by
poeticspoken
on November 20, 2004 at 1:30 PM
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im going thorugh lots of emotions right now
I can't even describe how I feel....I have so much going on and my head is going to explode...
argh
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 20, 2004 at 1:28 PM
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mary_x
thank you ever so much for your comment...that really spoke volumes to me...you are right..whatever is in his head is deep...because some of the things he says do not make sense...he brings up things from nowhere....
thank you
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 20, 2004 at 1:26 PM
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Melodystar ..thank you sweetie
I know you can relate
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 20, 2004 at 1:25 PM
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Justsouno thank you ever so much
I would appreciate you praying for me...you are very kind
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 20, 2004 at 1:24 PM
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scriber
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 20, 2004 at 1:24 PM
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redlunar thank you
posted by
_Symphony_
on November 20, 2004 at 1:23 PM
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Symphony,
Just remember that it's not about you. This self-destruction in him started before you and it will continue until he reaches some kind of turning point or never does. You couldn't save him, because whatever is programmed into his brain is too deep. Protect yourself and your children at all costs. I know how hard it is to sever the cord, but the things he says come out of the past and have NOTHING to do with who you are.
posted by
Blanche.
on November 20, 2004 at 1:19 PM
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I am so sorry, I wish there was something I could do!!! I will pray for you. Please take care I know first hand how men can be.
posted by
Melodystar
on November 20, 2004 at 1:16 PM
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Symphony
I am so sorry dear one. A man should love his wife as he loves his own body. He would not abuse himself intentionally. Do you mind if I pray for you? It is difficult to raise children when someone is being mean and demeaning you.
posted by
Justi
on November 20, 2004 at 1:14 PM
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symp--stay strong, you have made great advances...love Scriber
posted by
scriber
on November 20, 2004 at 1:14 PM
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Symph,
my heart goes out to you...consider this a big hug...it's not fair, I know -- don't let him get the better of you...be strong, we're all behind you! love, red
posted by
redlunar
on November 20, 2004 at 1:11 PM
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