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You are so very, very welcome, and thank you for your words, too :)
Simply adore me, huh?
Right back at ya, baby
posted by
Moohahaha
on May 13, 2004 at 11:14 PM
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Yes, Viva, Gibran is amazing and profound.
Thanks for reading and commenting. :)
posted by
Temple
on May 13, 2004 at 8:43 PM
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Benzinha, it takes a special woman to inspire me and crack me up, both.
I think, unfortunately, there is enough despair to cover it all. This is not deep, deep despair or depression so much as helplessness and fear...and the inability at any given moment to both not know what the hell to do/feel/say next, as well as feeling utterly alone in my situation and feelings. I'm unable to sleep through the night and Billy's drinking beer at the palace during a party. I'm not sure how to reconcile that. I'm so profoundly grateful for his safety and peace of mind...but I end up questioning myself and my place. It's very hard for me to explain. Suffice to say, this is unlike anything I've been through. It's true, I am a worry wort as you say. I walk away from it for small periods of time, but my unconscious won't let me get through the night without some reminder. Like I said, it's all about adjustment. It's brand new. I will adjust. All aspects of life and living are good indeed...some we prefer to reflect on what they taught us in retrospect, however. :)
posted by
Temple
on May 13, 2004 at 8:41 PM
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Heather, it takes beautiful to appreciate beautiful.
Your comment was so detailed and special, thank you so much. Anyone ever tell you that you have a way with words and should write. ;) Your extra efforts and concern in reaching out to me has meant so very, very much. I'm always surprised how the universe pulls people into my life with experiences I need to hear about. I simply adore you.
posted by
Temple
on May 13, 2004 at 8:31 PM
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Bella, thank you so much for that thought.
I can't tell you how comforting that possibility is for me.
posted by
Temple
on May 13, 2004 at 8:26 PM
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beedle....purple and sunny here, too.
Sun is taunting me when I feel like this. I wish I could just not think or not feel it or whatever it is he seems able to do. You okay?
posted by
Temple
on May 13, 2004 at 8:25 PM
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Benzinha, thanks for the suggestion.
I read her posts. Our circumstances are really different, so some of my built in stress and uncertainty wasn't there for her...but it was nice to see her emotional back and forth and know I wasn't alone. At least Billy's having a good time!
(Billy....Old Love just came on...guess what I'm thinking?)
posted by
Temple
on May 13, 2004 at 8:20 PM
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cowboy cargo
What can I say to you? Stop telling me to play with strange boys and just keep your ass safe. Missing you every day until you come home.
posted by
Temple
on May 13, 2004 at 8:18 PM
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Shavonne, I think you are right.
But it won't be a surprise now though! He's sneaky that one. ;)
posted by
Temple
on May 13, 2004 at 8:17 PM
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Nice work
I would recommend that everyone reads all of - Kahlil Gibran, “The Prophet” words that stir. Never ending wisdom. Next to the universe he is my mentor.
well done
Cheers VIVA
posted by
VIVA_LA_KATZE
on May 13, 2004 at 6:06 PM
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Temple, I can feel your Grand Funk Railroad coming on....Remember, if you
dive into the deepest depths with just one departure, then, what are you saving for the really bad days when you really feel bad, on those really, really bad days, when things go wrong and nothing goes right and everything is messed up and you feel major despair.....?!?!?! See how silly you made me? Save some of that deep depression for absolutely horrid things, okay?? Life is good.
Feng Shui that roller coaster ride into a smooth prairie crossing through flat grasslands. Use your fabulous mind to pull yourself into some fabulous place where you can tolerate loss a little better (he'll be back soon and then.....and then......).....you can do it. Sure is easy for me to say. I'm afraid to lose my mommy this year and know exactly what silly, useless paralizing fear can do to an otherwise normal life. Living is good, all aspects of it.
posted by
benzinha
on May 12, 2004 at 1:24 AM
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Normally, I would respond to you individually...
...but tonight I just don't have it in me. I'm....so....tired. Emotionally more than physically. I don't think writing Billy at that address would get through, but feel free. I'm not sure why he put it here. The guy with the motorcycle hadn't been sober since about 1975. I am facinated by Vietnam and by people's stories. More later. Just can't do it.
posted by
Temple
on May 11, 2004 at 6:26 PM
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You beautiful girl, you :)
This post sings of the fullness of life - sadness, hope, beauty, the richness of interweaving lives. I love the way you have expressed your feelings here - the way you wrote "he let Kem travel the 5000 miles to Iceland and introduce himself", the inner child / parent struggle, the sacredness of life shown in your hope and fears for Billy through to your interaction with the girl at training and the guy on the street, the rich, exploding colour of the flowers for Billy. Beautiful, Temple, simply beautiful. You guys are in my heart. Much love, Heather xx xx
PS: I looooove Joss Stone, too xxx
posted by
Moohahaha
on May 11, 2004 at 3:05 PM
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An excellent choice of book for you both to read
There will be moments when you read the same verses in unison.
posted by
beachbelle
on May 11, 2004 at 10:51 AM
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I might have been the woman who pretended not to see motorcycle guy. San Diego is purple and here everything is yellow with hot hot sun.
posted by
beedle
on May 11, 2004 at 10:32 AM
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Temple, you might go to read workin_girls posts, old but timely.
She had a husband over there.....went on that rollercoaster ride and she can point out its high and low points to you and point out some of her self-saving techniques......lovely post.
Should we write to billy boy as no name secret and see if they pass the letters on to other fellows who might need some mail there?
posted by
benzinha
on May 11, 2004 at 9:36 AM
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an address
my name (secret)
CPA/DOL
APO AE 09316
take care and don't pass up a good story or a ride on a motorcycle;-)
posted by
FreeManWalking
on May 11, 2004 at 8:05 AM
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Billy will enjoy the flowers. Anything with color will put a smile on his face after seeing the brown of the desert.. I know it would for me.
posted by
Shavonne
on May 11, 2004 at 4:33 AM
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