Random thoughts

My darkest hours were always hid away I shared some things with some people but at the end of the day I've always felt alone in my sadness or fears See the Devil prayed on me and I let him win, many times When I was a sad but dramatic 18 year old looking for attention, to the 23 year old just hoping... Sign in to see full entry.

When I was a young single mother I did horrible things to feed my child. I lied to everyone I knew about the state of my life, I was young and ready to be free. My choice of a man was not suitable for my child and I was to young to see it I picked a life style that put food on the table but lead me... Sign in to see full entry.

See the evidence was there all along, The first time, I was upset with my mom and turned to go the other way, there was a force, an invisible force that stopped me. I turned around and followed my mom. The time I was out of state and was approached by a stranger in an official car that offered me a... Sign in to see full entry.

My grandmother took me to church growing up, We went to the big service and she gave me candy for being good and quiet, I'm sure I went to the small service but that part I don't recall, I remember her, the candy, the MC Donald's and the babom babom sound her van wheels made as we drove down the rd.... Sign in to see full entry.

You asked why won't you let me into you life? It took me eight days but I said.... IDK how. I have pondered this question a few time. Honestly I have a hundred things I could say but To me they are excuses while being facts. My life has traveled such a path hat I feel like none of what I'll say will... Sign in to see full entry.

I watched the movie and read the book. I also lived some version of this. I say some version, because everyone's version of abuse is different. I meant a person who was either attempting to belittle my history while trying to gain my trust or trying to just spill a little insight. They discussed... Sign in to see full entry.

I have to share my babies with a man who cant see past the end of his nose. I have to share my daughters with a man who would rather hurle insults then see effort. I have to share my babies with a man who thinks hes the only one doing right. Im not a perfect parent. Im tough. I wear an outer shell... Sign in to see full entry.

Are you a Colleen Hoover fan? I just recently stumbled upon her and ive become a fan. I had just finished my Sue Grafton series and needed something to try. A fellow softball mom was reading her and i thought, maybe. Well ive officially read 6 of her books now and im on #7. I want to talk about the... Sign in to see full entry.

I heard many things about this movie but didn't really think it was something i would actually watch. My best friend ended up being the reason i did. When it was over i had a few thoughts. One was how sad she couldn't go to her mom but how common that feeling is. I'm glad she had a real friend, i... Sign in to see full entry.

The things i dont say This man i have is amazing, hes so special to me in so many ways i cant explain Its actually scary how much he means to me, it makes the thought of ever losing him seem incredibly heartbreaking He has done more for me in three years then one could imagine Being loved the right... Sign in to see full entry.