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Azure, no reply needed. Read back through your posts for perspective!

I'm just bursting with advice today. My advice about that is to laugh and erase it!

posted by majroj on July 27, 2006 at 8:06 AM | link to this | reply

Azur

Those sound like great accomplishments to me, not one hit wonders......congratulations! That is something to be proud of.

posted by BlondeAmbition007 on July 27, 2006 at 3:39 AM | link to this | reply

Thank you

Blanche01, much depends on the aspect from the window. Yesterday it was so cloudy.

johnmcnab it is one of those hanging on by the fingertips times but I sent out some pitches and had some warm responses to say that the editors are thinking about the ideas. No you were not obtuse - in fact you are always so understanding.

Arialia, thanks for your thoughts. I think a lot of people are feeling the pinch right now and freelancing is volatile. I did not mean to sound as if I was asking for money. This lifestyle is my choice but sometimes it is a challenge. I recall once sayingin a casual way to a former blogger that I had to watch my pennies. He is a very committed journalist who tackles tough issues regarding cover ups and human rights. I was absolutely stunned when I checked my email only to log on and find that he'd sent money to me. It was very moving particularly given that shortly before that he had been homeless. There was no way I could accept and I was certain that his need was greater than mine so I had to find a way to decline without insulting him. We remain friends.

A-and-B thanks

Majroj. I am pressing on. Yes it is ironic that I frequently interview millionaires and write about multi bilion dollar industries.

FionaJean. You are doing great I think. Yes, the off days happen but are outnumbered by the days which are perfectly fine.

More replies a little later

posted by Azur on July 27, 2006 at 3:30 AM | link to this | reply

Azur, I am sending some positive thoughts your way, hoping that today is a

better day than yesterday and you're starting to see some light.

posted by Blanche. on July 26, 2006 at 10:47 AM | link to this | reply

Azur

Please accept my apology for being so obtuse, Azur. Hang on in there - by your fingertips if necessary - until the panic subsides, You know you can weather this storm.

posted by johnmacnab on July 26, 2006 at 10:38 AM | link to this | reply

Azur

Actually, I thought about emailing you and asking if I could Paypal over some moolah to help you out, and you could pay me back when you got paid. But then I checked my own finances and things are very tight with me, too. Business has been extremely slow here, so though my heart is in the right place in wishing I could help, I'm afraid my pocketbook doesn't have anything to spare. I did pray for you last night, for all that's worth.

posted by Ariala on July 26, 2006 at 8:56 AM | link to this | reply

posted by A-and-B on July 26, 2006 at 4:38 AM | link to this | reply

Nothing like lack money to shake up your ego.

Maybe we're not commenting because we aren't on the Net lately?

It's a rough patch. Press on.

posted by majroj on July 26, 2006 at 2:50 AM | link to this | reply

Azur

Don't be silly - you're not a sham - your advice to me encouraged me to keep knocking on doors and I received an assignment from the Natal Witness and just three days later, one from the Sunday Tribune Herald. Funny, I was always confident in my writing until now. Now I wonder,"Is it good enough?" - it's a paralyzing fear. Anyway, thank you for sharing,at least I realise that I am not alone and even the professionals have off days. (Guess I'm one of those professionals too now.)

posted by fionajean on July 26, 2006 at 1:55 AM | link to this | reply

Yes, we do want to hear about everyday stuff like that.

No, we don't think you're a sham. If we do, then we're labelling ourselves as sham as well.

But we do share the self-doubt. Self-doubt is a necessary brake upon ego. Self-doubt is a hiatus of reflection after which you know deeply that you are doing the right thing. Or the wrong thing. But without self-doubt, you don't know anything. If you don't experience self-doubt, then you just go on blindly through life with your ears closed.

posted by _dave_says_ack_ on July 26, 2006 at 1:03 AM | link to this | reply

dear Azur because of the Sham others pride themselves high and great ,

because of have black can be contrast white .

because of have spicy have the sweet ..

may be she is spicy so you feel your self sweet something like this .

thanks for you , you show me i `m a sham .

posted by Rosetree on July 26, 2006 at 12:49 AM | link to this | reply

Azur, every one needs support and we get it where we can, here can be

a good source of support but it is unreliable and you cannot expect it as you would in a personal interaction with a friend on a one to one basis. I can sympathise with your plight, not every body is rolling in the dough. Self-employment brings freedom but also uncertainty, there seems to be high and lows with income, and you need to hang in there and ride out the bottom of the wave, it is only temporary. A little panic is not a bad thing as long as it stirs you into action rather than self pity. You have grit determination and belief in yourself and talent. A great combination for success!

posted by marieclaire66 on July 26, 2006 at 12:01 AM | link to this | reply

Hang in there.

posted by Tanga on July 25, 2006 at 11:36 PM | link to this | reply

Just curious Azur...where are you from?

posted by bwFrampton on July 25, 2006 at 11:27 PM | link to this | reply

Azur...

Mayhap I am coming off sounding like an ass to some folks, but I really would not care what others think. Everyone has their own personality and, unfortunately, personalities clash. I mean, if you and I had a disagreement, I would set that aside to shake your hand and let whatever the subject was drop.

There is no bridge burnt that cannot be rebuilt. Just keep striving, but be YOU...

posted by bwFrampton on July 25, 2006 at 11:24 PM | link to this | reply

Bell Keeper

Thanks for the lovely comment. In my rational mind I know that it can happen again re the articles but today my rational mind is not winning because of the other skirmish in my mind - panic versus calmness over finances. However today I sent off a bunch of other ideas to editors so perhaps my panic will bring a positive result.
Today I was genuinely seeking some comfort and interaction here but I realize that I can't expect people to know that - how is a reader to know whether we are posting for the sake of it (for clicks) or if we want interaction? I guess that we must explicitly say so. I value being read rather than being clicked. I know some say that there is no difference but you can feel the difference. I am long past caring about popularity here. In a former incarnation here I was number one several times but I let that blogger pass into the Blogit archives. I also know full well that some people can't stand me and for them I am beyond redemption. It amazes me because I don't think likee that. I don't normally worry about that in my rational state.

posted by Azur on July 25, 2006 at 11:12 PM | link to this | reply

Azur...

If it happened once, it can happen again.

As far as this place goes, write for You and foremost YOU. Don't worry about click or comment. Don't worry, especially about negative or rude comments. Use this place as an outlet - do not get lost in the ridiculous plight for popularity.

Just have yourself a bit of fun with it.

Ya just never know...inspiration may come from letting go a bit and being indifferent.

I'll be sure to read a bit more of your work. You sound like an intelligent, insightful person.

Keep strong.

posted by bwFrampton on July 25, 2006 at 10:14 PM | link to this | reply

I have simple needs Mademoiselle

Human interaction. When one is a freelance much contact is by remote means and when remote people get remote ...... Sometimes I think there is an unwritten law here that at the times when one needs interaction or a word of encouragement that it is withdrawn. I think too that it is seen as poor manners to discuss one's financial situation. Thanks for your comment.

posted by Azur on July 25, 2006 at 10:04 PM | link to this | reply

Azur, I find your dedication and determination to succeed

as a professional writer quite fascinating and informative. Of course it's not a straight line march; the twists and different trails add to the realness of your journey, imo. I haven't been reading much lately due to summer activities, life in general, etc. Probably the case with other bloggers too. Perhaps that is why your previous post was overlooked. I did read it after reading this....;) Hang on in there!