Friday, February 1, 2019
I have to go along with everything he tells me. Otherwise he says I will NEVER see my kids again. I don't like this. I think it's bullshit. He's been telling me this for over 2 years now. I cannot afford an attorney and all the research I do doesn't tell me much. I don't know anymore...just become a... Sign in to see full entry.
Friday, January 4, 2019
New year, New attitude!
Good one, so far! Whew! That’s always a plus around here! With all this chaos, good attitudes are hard to come by. I have been trying my best to practice what I preach honey! It’s had its moments. I am not going to say it’s working. I am going to say, maybe what I preach may not work in every... Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, December 26, 2018
Nothing funny about fear..
I do so many stupid things out of fear. I laugh, I cry, I lie, I scream, and I run. Maybe I don't physically run. But I do run. I run away from the topic if someone asks me something I don't remember or if its something "hard" to talk about. I fear his rejection yet in our worst arguments, him... Sign in to see full entry.
Friday, December 21, 2018
Son asking G-Ma:Why are Scottish people so mad?
My son and I were helping his grandma with her new phone. Actually lets keep it real here, my son was helping his grandma with her new phone. This was a joke he tells her when he was finished. Son: Grandma, Why are the Scottish people so mad? Grandma: I don't know, Why? Son: We use too much Scotch... Sign in to see full entry.
Monday, December 17, 2018
Haven't had a good laugh :(
I usually try to be silly or find the funny it just hasn't seemed appropriate or available lately. I don't even know if that makes any sense. I have been in serious mode at times. I have tried to be silly it just ends up sounding really corny or pretty stupid, and not funny stupid. I hope it's a... Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, December 5, 2018
How am I intimidated by a counter/sink full of dirty dishes? It’s only dishes. I mean really. I have been through so much in life all ready. I cannot muster up the motivation or the desire to wash them, dry them and put them away. They give me the evil eye, as I see one over there, they stare me... Sign in to see full entry.
Tuesday, October 2, 2018
My mind wonders...
soul searches... heart healing... emotions confused... patience gone... past over... present now... future unknown... attitude yes... change always... today new... breathe in... breathe out.. eyes open... now I... see me. Sign in to see full entry.
Friday, September 28, 2018
TTYL...
Ending my membership... Not being able to get on here as much as I want to... Thanks for letting me be a part of your team and I appreciate your kind words and suggestions, stories shared. I hope to come back very soon. It seems I have until the end of September, so there's that at least. Depression... Sign in to see full entry.
Saturday, September 22, 2018
I had an idea...
I made it happen. I had an idea made it happen we had a family night last night. I cannot remember the last time this happened. It was a free event. Movie night at the park. We made the kids go. It was a beautiful night. Movie was great. Everyone had fun. It was great. I can't believe an idea that I... Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, September 19, 2018
I continue to fail
The more I try, the worse it seems to get. I keep telling myself not to give up... Don't give up on me, on him, on them, on us.. Sign in to see full entry.