My Companion, My Pain

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Tuesday, February 12, 2013

One of those nights

It's one of those nights when I'm not really in pain but just uncomfortable. Sometimes when you get enough pain meds in you, you start to become restless. You can't really sleep but your sleepy. You want to do something but because your drugged up you can't really focus to do anything. I don't know... Sign in to see full entry.

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Afraid to say it.

I'm afraid to say it, I don't want to jinx myself. Here goes people, are you all ready for this? I have been pain free for two days. My doctor changed one of my medications and it has made such a difference. I have had the equivalent of one dose of methadone and tramadol in 24 hours. I'm praying... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, January 14, 2013

When Pain Doctors become a Pain.

Well it was bound to happen. I love my pain doctor and he has been great but at some point his lack of actual experiance with my condition was going to create a cloud of doubt and cause him to go there. That place they all go eventually. He is starting to wonder if I'm abusing my drugs. I think his... Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Growing up with it.

I believe that the pain grew with me and so I truly believe that the pain and I growing together helped me to tolerate it. The people that I meet that started having symptoms later in life really have a tough time sometimes. Their not used to adapting for it. Sign in to see full entry.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Painful story

Just read a story on the Ankylosing Spondylitis Awareness Project on facebook about a young girl who was in so much pain that she killed herself. I am thankful that I was raised by a father who understood ( from personal experience unfortunately ) my pain and a mother who never made me feel doubted.... Sign in to see full entry.


Started physical therapy on my neck last week. I can't decide if it helps or not. It feels good at the time but later I start to really hurt. I may have more movement from side to side but it doesn't last long. But I will continue to go for a while and give it a chance. Who knows maybe I will get a... Sign in to see full entry.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Pain free days

I am experiancing pain free days at last. I am still loaded with narcotics but at least they are being affective. In the past I have been drunk with pain killers and still feeling pain. This year I have planted some plants and flowers. I am keeping up with my yard and starting to make head way on my... Sign in to see full entry.

Friday, March 9, 2012

A Lot of Changes

It is so good to finally be back with you all. I don't know how many of my old friends are here, all of them I hope. I have now been unemployed for almost three years. This week I finally got my disability approved. It feels so good to finally be able to have some money coming in. My mother has been... Sign in to see full entry.

Friday, April 22, 2011

Pain in my leg

A month ago, maybe more it all becomes a blur, my shin bone on my right leg started feeling like it was going to explode. I went to the Dr and he thinks that the Embril injections may be destroying the protective casings of my nerves and so decided that I need some nerve tests done. I am waiting for... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Doctors visit

Saw my pain doctor today. He is concerned about my leg. It doesn't fit the pattern of the rest of my disease. I have an appointment on the 31 st with my other doctor and am hoping for good news. The concern is there for my liver and all the narcotics so some changes will need to be made. Now that I... Sign in to see full entry.

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