My Companion, My Pain

I went out and racked leaves today with my grandson. It was a lot of fun watching him running back and forth carrying a leaf at a time. I knew I was going to pay for it tonight big time but since I don't have to watch my grandson tomorrow morning I thought I was okay. The problem is my high school... Sign in to see full entry.

About three years ago the doctor talked me into trying a new medication that was going to be very expensive. My insurance ( I was working then ) would pay a large part of it but I was still going to have to pay a considerable amount. I asked them for a statement as to how much it would cost me. They... Sign in to see full entry.

I have some events coming up that I'm excited about and I'm so determined not to let my pain get in the way. Boise has a very famous haunted penitentiary that has been featured on travel channel and the Ghost Adventure group did an investigation there. In a couple of weeks the local TAPS group is... Sign in to see full entry.

Sometimes I think the pain in my jaw has got to be the worst. It makes my whole head hurt and I can't eat or drink without pain. On top of that I broke a tooth and the two together makes me crazy. I can't afford to fix my teeth because they have to knock me all the way out to work on anything... Sign in to see full entry.

Well my favorite time of the year is here again. Fall. I just love it but my body doesn't. I'm hurting so bad and my narcotic use is on the rise again. I hate that. But well that's to be expected I guess. They started a new support group here which will be nice and their thinking about starting a... Sign in to see full entry.

I'm finally doing better. I have been unemployed for a year and a half now. I am starting to feel more energy. I get up in the morning and go all day sometimes with out having to lay down at all. I take care of my grandson three morning a week and have learned to really enjoy our time. We do... Sign in to see full entry.

Well now the doctor has added a diaeretic to the mix. My blood pressure was 190 over 110 in the beginning. I got it down to the 170's over 100's on my own but finally had to give up and start blood pressure medication. The doctor was trying to avoid dieretic because of my allergy to sulfa drugs but... Sign in to see full entry.

My grandson is getting bigger. Which is good. But he still wants grandma to stand up and hold him, and rock him to sleep when he gets so tired that he just can't wind down on his own. That is bad. His mom and dad will try to relieve me as soon as possible but if they try to take him from me too... Sign in to see full entry.

Now for the latest. I have high blood pressure. I went to the pain doctor and my blood pressure was 190 over 100 and something. The doctor was ready to admit me. By the time I was finished with the appointment it had came down some but the doctor was still concerned as was I because I had never had... Sign in to see full entry.

As I become older I am becoming more of a loner. I wondered why and suddenly one day it became clear. My life is controlled by my pain. It is so much easier to live around my illness when I'm alone. I can work, play, travel, eat, sleep, live fine by myself. If someone else is around I have to... Sign in to see full entry.