Six Generations of First Born Women

The artist/model relationship developed slowly. I asked if I could bring Erika with me that first time he wanted to use my feet as a model for a stone piece he was carving. He agreed, so late one afternoon she and I went over to his Melcher Street studio. It would have been difficult for him to use... Sign in to see full entry.

We stayed together for the children's sake might be my mother's explanation for her life but it wouldn't be mine. The only thing that caused me anguish was Erika. She was ten years old. She was a beautiful child, a trouble free child who had brought Pete and I great joy. I spent many hours... Sign in to see full entry.

A relentless desire to be with him propelled me through my days. At 14 I'd become sexually active and had had a wide range of experiences until I married Pete. Once I was married I believed I was married and managed to be faithful and true and all that - whatever (but like Jimmy Carter said "I had... Sign in to see full entry.

On that first night I neglected to tell him I was married. In my head I was no longer married but tell that to the judge. The next day I took Erika to work with me. The Gallery was between exhibitions, so the entire space was empty before the next bunch of artists came in to hang their work. I let... Sign in to see full entry.

Guilt was a new feeling for me and I didn't like it. I snuck into the house that first night and Pete was already in bed. My 10 year old daughter was asleep in her room. I shower and slink into bed with Pete. In this moment I know I have betrayed our marriage in a way that is irretrievable. Pete... Sign in to see full entry.