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Happy Valentine's to you, Jay and your lovely progeny both!
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posted by
ILLUMINATI8
on February 14, 2009 at 5:51 AM
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Re: I choose to take this message personally! HAPPY bday LadySEEmarie (fr. Nil)
To my champion, Sir Nil, my dearest,
I should explain something....
I found this picture of the little red glittery heart under the hate page and it reminded me of one of the last insulting emails I had received from "that idiot of a male" (I love how you've referred to him over the years!!) No sir, I could never say "I hate you" to another living soul and I didn't believe him when he wrote that to ME! He was trying to get me to leave him alone. I have now, for over a year -- no contact, exactly. He was publishing his pictures for public view, a new thing, on Picasa and so was I, and I think we both were 'communicating" our family Christmases, etc., thru public venues though officially not in contact? But in essence, it was contact because I think he must have been getting that (dark, furtive - he called it) obsessive feeling coming on to check out what I was doing. If that makes any sense? At the beginning of Feb. he closed the public page of family pictures because he either got caught or got guilty. He also deleted a movie review blog that he'd had for years. I think he would find it all to easy to fall back in love with me and out of love with his Mrs. I know the connection we had (and have had since 1971) and a few silly insults and words can't cover the truth for long. We have this amazing mind meld -- even if he IS an idiot male (LOLROF!) I love your descriptions!!
That is a long explanation of what was behind my publishing the red glittery heart picture in the first place. Just a slight tear through a whole page of "I hate you" words will reveal the truth behind the words. Hate is just another word for love frustrated.
I can love many in my heart at the same time and that is one thing he has never accomplished, nor trusted. I think there is a problem with his second child, a son, and his affections or his doubts of loving him. He is so monogamistic it's pathetic. If he loves me, then he can't love his wife. If he feels that happening again, he is quick like a turtle to pull his head back into his shell and hide with his monogamist beliefs and his original commitment. 'Go for it, man," I say! That is his big loss and why he will come back to this earth to live life over and over again if awarded the chance, until he figures out what love is all about and LEARN.
YOU, my friend, have figured this much out about me and never doubt it. I love, I AM love, and my being could never be anything but love. Love has the power. And yes, I have moved on. But with LOVE as my guide (that I glean from our Heavenly Father, the Mother, and Jesus - the trinity of love.) Your words I took to heart and it was so dear of you to defend and guide me. I agree with you, luv, one hundred percent! I could never hate him or anyone, but I have blessed his decision and have taken up my hearth and home as first priorities.
xoxoxox
Your Cee
posted by
LadyCeeMarie
on February 13, 2009 at 10:56 PM
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I choose to take this message personally! HAPPY bday LadySEEmarie (fr. Nil)
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NOTE: the reason I took the above 15 day message personally is THAT BY HATING, you give that idot of a male continuing poer over YOU and your Higher self. Hear me...he gets to control YOU still.... hate him for 5 minutes, buty him and the meory, and then u will be FREE> Wish him well...it is liberating! Let him dream of memories, YOU move on, Please Sweetie?
posted by
ILLUMINATI8
on February 12, 2009 at 1:07 PM
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Well said is all I have to say. Great job!
posted by
dpaulinomorris24
on February 1, 2009 at 11:39 AM
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Thanks for the read--
I've grown so much since I lost my heart 4 years ago. Carole
posted by
LadyCeeMarie
on January 27, 2009 at 5:24 PM
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Wisely stated...
posted by
teddypoet_TheGoodByeFade
on January 27, 2009 at 4:20 PM
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