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Elyse
posted by
elysianfields
on June 2, 2008 at 9:07 PM
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John,
It is a pleasure to make your acqaintence. Your expression is intriquing, enticing one to ponder long in thought. It is true, we all fight to give a name to the reflection in our mirror as our esteem was developed through the reactions and responses of others.
I believe when we begin to understand the reactions of others toward us as having very little to do with us, but moreso an outward response to their own inward self views, we can gain a different perception of ourselves. I have contemplated the considerable changes in my own reflected contenance when exuberating confidence versus self doubt. I believe we project our inner beauty as well as insecurities, having very little to do with the dynamics or symetry of our appearance.
I also want to express my appreciation of your insightful comment regarding my expression. I have come to a realization that when we deeply seek healing and spiritual growth, we attract those most likely to aide in our progress. The question I asked of God and persisted in prayer for many years was to show me what love truly is. Often times when our prayers are answered or presented before us, we will find ourselves in uncomfortable occurrance or situation we may not be prepared to receive, or facing a fear we may not be prepared to face; The answer to my prayer involved both; my fears and my ability to receive. I was overwhelmed with the depth of insight given to me into this man and reflectively within my perception of myself. It has taken me a long time to feel deserving to receive such a gift, as well to face my greatest fear.
To possess such a depth of passion towards another or calling or cause can certainly make us feel confused, vulnerable and above all feel unworthy, particularly when there is no support or validation from anyone. It's difficult to express such passion. My fear has been conquered, yet the perception of my reflection is slow to evolve.
Thank you again for your insight. As I have written, it means more than I can express in words. My prayers are with you.
posted by
_CherylAnn
on June 1, 2008 at 7:15 PM
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Poignant poem John...even behind the humor you can not hide the serious aspects of it, search for meaning , knowing oneself... Beautifully written, I loved it! xx
posted by
Sinome
on May 31, 2008 at 1:45 PM
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sam
posted by
sam444
on May 31, 2008 at 1:19 PM
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I know who I am, most of the time ... but there have been periods
when I have lost myself -- didn't recognize the actions or the morality of 'her' thoughts. It's such a relief to find myself again ... comforting and familiar. Great write.
posted by
VictoriaP
on May 31, 2008 at 1:11 PM
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This reminds me of somthing that happened to me about 15 years ago. I woke up one morning and I didn't know who I was. I don't mean just my name. I didn't know who I was. I knew that I was. And I knew that I had a 'past' but, I had no idea what it was. I had been meditating, spiritual questioning, etc. for decades at that point and it was all very comfortable to me, not to know who I was. I sort of knew intuitively that I should just enjoy the peace. There was no fear or grasping at all. I just sort of floated for a few minutes, conscious but, not really 'knowing' anything. In a few minutes, everything came back. I knew who I was and what my challenges were for the coming day. I had been right to enjoy the peace and absence of 'knowledge'. Moon 
posted by
magic_moon
on May 31, 2008 at 10:38 AM
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