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you should see the one where I'm wearing only the boots and the toolbelt
posted by
jimmy68
on July 9, 2004 at 11:37 PM
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Temple--writing is very inspiring. love s.
posted by
scriber
on July 8, 2004 at 8:14 AM
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Bella! So good to see you....
I hope all is well with you. I'm happy to hear you say that you could feel what I'm feeling there, because it's been so hard for me to describe to my family or other people even what it's like. Maybe sometimes people don't want to know, I guess. Tell you what, you listen to some Eminem and you give me a music selection to listen to --- whatever you listen to when you want serenity --- we'll both have new horizons. Thanks for the support, it means so much. My father is a good man, but he doesn't get it....or me. It's nice to know others do. 
posted by
Temple
on July 7, 2004 at 4:45 PM
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jimmy, nice one....temple of my mind....
I do live there, indeed. I need to meditate more though. Get all squirmy. 
I love the recommendations and will have to check that out. I will have to research that, actually, because I'm pretty clueless when it comes to punk. In fact, I wondered....did he just make that up to make me laugh? Spoken word is fucking brilliant, love it. Thanks, always cool to get new ideas. :)
posted by
Temple
on July 7, 2004 at 4:42 PM
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awwwww, H....my girl Joss....
Next time, listen to track #7 and think of the love story you've like so much. It's a soundtrack. I'll come help clean and then we'll make a feast....we'll drink to much and stick the rogue with the dishes. 
posted by
Temple
on July 7, 2004 at 4:37 PM
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billy....billy....billy....
You know, from the beginning you've always known how to say a few words and get right inside to what hurts, how lucky I am to have that. We most definitely are more than what others say, and our flaws only make us unique people. I think what some people think are flaws in themselves are the things I love most about them. Thanks for being there when I know things are icky for you and you feel, well, icky. The song was perfect. I'll take those hugs and raise you a few.
posted by
Temple
on July 7, 2004 at 4:35 PM
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Original, I am glad you stopped in. Hope you'll keep coming by.
Music and writing and the support of friends can work magic (and kitties, can't forget them).
posted by
Temple
on July 7, 2004 at 4:31 PM
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Wenchie, I've avoided writing about the details of this for so long.
I think I'm at a place where I'm less embarrassed and more determined. I know what helped me during the time immediately after....hearing about how other people survived adversity. Maybe something I go through will inspire someone else, and then there's the cycle. It helps me work it out to put it in piece of writing for people to read because I have to finish the thoughts completely....if that makes sense. My journal can be just ramblings, and here I want to say something, so it helps.
As far as me being a disappointment....most of the time I know that isnt true. But, when I'm down that kind of stuff can get in and muck about in the soft spots. It was really hard to say out loud....in "real life" I don't like to be vulnerable and I still protect myself here. It feels so much safer to say the truth here now thanks to you....and all of you who have supported me. Okay, this is now a blog! :) Much, much love to you Heather. I can't say enough how lovely you are. 
posted by
Temple
on July 7, 2004 at 4:30 PM
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Hi Symphony.....thanks for stopping by.
I am thinking of you now, too. Hope you are okay.
Eminem certainly can be over the top, but when you need that kick it's awesome. He's brilliant, that kid, got all kinds of people listening to rap now.
posted by
Temple
on July 7, 2004 at 4:23 PM
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Temple
Reading you took me into that store with you. How could I say this? But really I do understand what you were feeling. I have never listened to Eminem - maybe I should. How dare your father be disappointed.
posted by
beachbelle
on July 7, 2004 at 1:32 PM
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I can dig the Real Slim Shady...
but I'd really reccomend some old school punk for those moments...DK's Fresh Fruit for Rotten Vegetables perhaps? You know that Jello Biafra is fully into the activist thing these days, doing spoken word tours and giving indie bands a shot at Alternative Tentacles Reccords...
Stay strong and meditate in the Temple of your mind...
posted by
jimmy68
on July 5, 2004 at 11:44 PM
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:::: Listening to Joss Stone right now as I dash about the house cleaning and think of a lovely girl across the seas :::::::
posted by
Moohahaha
on July 5, 2004 at 9:23 PM
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i hope your 4th was okay...
remember we are more than what others tell us our short comings are. you need eminem but you may want to listen to "In the Middle" by Jimmy Eats World...hugs baby hugs
posted by
FreeManWalking
on July 5, 2004 at 8:36 PM
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Temple,
I, also, listen to eminem when times are rough.
I have different CD's for different moods too.
It does help, doesn't it. Stay strong and you will get through this.
I'm sorry I didn't stop in sooner but I'm glad that I did now!!!
posted by
Original_Influence
on July 5, 2004 at 5:57 PM
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Arrgggh, how terrible for you to feel that way ...
and how beautiful you are to write in such an open, honest way about the things that bring you grief and hope.
A disappointment? You? Not ever.
Muchly, H' xx.
posted by
Moohahaha
on July 5, 2004 at 3:25 PM
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Eminem.
I love him............he tells like it is.................lol..............he is not afraid to say how he feels although sometimes over the top but still he is great...............take care
posted by
_Symphony_
on July 5, 2004 at 5:25 AM
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Shavonne, Eminem is really quite prophetic sometimes.
I like a lot of rap, but mostly old school stuff. I thought I mentioned Eminem in love notes from the assassin, but maybe not. I think I meant to. That CD just rocks and it's about being strong and fighting for what you want, for what's yours. Not letting people or life get you down. It's a great CD to listen to when you feel soft and unfocused and helpless. Check it out sometime.
posted by
Temple
on July 5, 2004 at 12:25 AM
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Shadow, brave was never something I called myself until now.
Others used it to describe me, and would just smile, unsure if it were true. Now, I think I've earned it because I've faced some incredible things. Let me tell ya, I would rather jump naked out of an airplane than go to that store at that time again. I'm glad I did it though. I have lost too much already and I must fight like a banshee where possible....and accept resignation where necessary. We don't know our true strength and capabilities until we are tested. I know you are facing that now, too. There will come a time you will say, I'm glad it happened because I like who I am now better....even if at that same time you might be cursing your injury. If we allow great things to enter our lives, and believe in ourselves and our possibilities, anything is possible. I hope like you do that those wishes you speak of come true for both of us. You've been a wonderful support, thank you.
posted by
Temple
on July 5, 2004 at 12:23 AM
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Cass, you like Eminem, too?
Man, your boys must think you are the bee's knees just to know who that is. I have categories for different moods, and that Em CD got me through some dark times last year. I usually remember writing posts, unless my muse takes over...or it's really painful like the last one. Thanks for always being so supportive. :)
posted by
Temple
on July 5, 2004 at 12:17 AM
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I never took you as the type of person that would listen to Eminem. I never heard that song before. I'm going to have to listen to it one of these days.
posted by
Shavonne
on July 4, 2004 at 8:35 AM
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Temple,
Life is so mysterious and always presents us with challenges. Girl, I am so proud of you for facing the crowds and accomplishing what you feel was a battlefield. It takes much bravery to just recognized your enemies and face them with a strong heart and the will to succeed. This you have done. You have proved to yourself that you can face the challenge. It may not seem much to other people, but then everyone has their personal fears, right. I have mine right now. Fears of failure because of my injury, fears of defeat in my own mind about relationships. I also try to be strong and brave and wish so much for a normal life again. If I want this for myself as you do, then I must face reality, my fears, and stand up to any obstacles that prevent me from doing that which I dream about.
I too would so much like the comfort of arms around me and someone special to just hold my hand, be there to give me strength and support when I'm scared. Someday maybe for both of us our wishes will come true and we will both have that comfort and joy. Someone who accepts me for who I am on the inside and not the physical. Have a Happy Fourth. Shadow
posted by
Keshet
on July 4, 2004 at 6:15 AM
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Temple I'm glad you like Eminem, I'm glad you are strong, I'm glad you are able to write all of this down for us to read (even if you don't remember). The fireworks are in your heart and in your head, they are there when you need them. Keep writing. Stay strong.
posted by
Ca88andra
on July 4, 2004 at 5:04 AM
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