I dont mean I would ever kill anyone, not even myself. Its jus an expression of rage. I most certainly would never entertain such a thought even for a split second. The only way I would ever hurt anyone physically is if they attack me, so it would be for self defense, because I would have no choice, What I need is advise on how to deal with this plague that has attached itself to me. If you have any advise please help me get her out of my life, the decent and the right way to do it. PLEASE HELP