I am a survivor - here's my story...

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Wednesday, March 3, 2010

The end - Ch. 4

I was now awake for the day. A great portion of this day is also a blur. I remember pieces of it, but I do not necessarily in order. I had a friend that worked as a breakfast waitress. She was always up early and getting her morning routine going, so I waited until 4:30 or so and called her. Of... Sign in to see full entry.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

The beginning - Chapter 4

It amazes me how much of this part of my life has been lost in my memories. I have felt that I would continue to remember the good times and not the bad. Does that mean that I didn't have that many good memories?......hmm One of the things that I remember most is the late night problems. Because... Sign in to see full entry.

Friday, February 26, 2010

The end - ch. 4

So, here I am, sitting at my mom's kitchen table. The state trooper is asking me a ton of questions like; "Where were you when you got the phone call?', "Why did you go to the house instead of just calling the police?", "Did you touch anything when you were in the house?" He wanted me to retrace my... Sign in to see full entry.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

The beginning - Chapter 3

I am going to cry, or scream, or something.... once again, somehow, almost to the end of my entry, I am going "back" somehow and then when I come to this page again everything is gone.... that'll teach me to watch basket ball while blogging! Anyway, back to our lives. Our life was actually very... Sign in to see full entry.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

the end - ch. 3

Ugh... I just lost my whole entry! I will do my best to re-create it in it's original form..... Back to THE night. It was approximately 10 pm. I arrived back at my mom's house to find out that my oldest son was still awake, waiting for me to come home. My mom had told him that his dad had an... Sign in to see full entry.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

The beginning - Chapter 2

Back to the beginning... so I find myself pregnant, and working towards a family, things I have wanted for so long. Pete did make some changes in his ways, but they were always made when it suited him, and then regressed back to his old ways when he wanted to. I ended up spending many nights and... Sign in to see full entry.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Another death

The order of my story is so different than I had planned, as is life, right? Wednesday, February 17, Pete's dad passed away at the age of 92. One day after the 6th anniversary of his suicide. It all just seems so surreal. I really did not have to mourn this death, Pete's entire family blamed me for... Sign in to see full entry.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Anniversary

Today is THE anniversary. It was six years ago tonight that Pete chose to end his life. I considered trying to celebrate his life today. As with the past 5 anniversaries, all I was able to do was mourn his death. Let me share a secret with you. It is one that I do not share in person. I still carry... Sign in to see full entry.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Follow me...

Hi followers - I am moving to the heading "non-fiction" as I feel it is a more appropriate category for my story since it is indeed a true story. You can find me there, and THANKS for following..... Sign in to see full entry.

The end - ch. 2

Back to the end.... Many of the details of the following hours are very hazy. I am sure I must have been in shock, just moving in whatever direction I was told. So, here I am standing in the home we shared, waiting for the ambulance. I think I really knew that he was gone, but of course, I needed to... Sign in to see full entry.

About this Blog

This is my story, I am a survivor of suicide. What do I mean? I mean my spouse chose suicide as his way to deal with his problems. I chose to be a survivor, to be the strong one, the winner. It isn't easy most days. I'll tell you all about my story, hopefully my survival will be a source of strength for anyone who needs it. I also go by "spsos", "spouse, partner, signifcant other of suicide."

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