Existential musings

I was poor, with no real direction in life. My first apartment was a rat trap, the wallpaper was peeling off the walls. I was working at a fast food joint, barely making enough money to survive. Twenty years later, I've got a good job, no real money problems to speak of, and life is pretty easy.... Sign in to see full entry.

I died, I think. The memory of my life, or what I think was my life, is fading, rapidly receding into the background. I'm not even sure what my name was. Was it just a dream, a lifetime of experiences compressed into the space of a few minutes? Or is this just what my newfound perception is telling... Sign in to see full entry.

Madness descends, reality bends, paradigms fly out the window. With new eyes I see, from outside of me, and laugh in a burning crescendo. Sign in to see full entry.

Strip away all non-essentials. You know what they are. Let go of that which you never were, but felt always obliged to be. Listen to the scream deep inside you, begging for freedom, begging to be heard. The cage around you took years to build, yet can be disassembled with but a thought. The greatest... Sign in to see full entry.

Where am I? How did I get here? Why don't I know what I'm supposed to do? Desperation hits me like a shot in the gut. I look for a sign, but there are none. I seek answers, but find only more questions. Is there a purpose, a reason? If there is, I want to know. If there's not, I want to know. My... Sign in to see full entry.

I look into the night sky All is quiet. I feel the heartbeat of the world. I am everywhere and nowhere. I am happy. Sign in to see full entry.

Multiple sclerosis, my constant companion, Thief of movement, robber of sensation. You seek to take all from me, inch by inch, bit by bit. I will not hate you, as is your want. Instead, I will embrace you. I will love you. You have weakened my body, but strengthened my spirit in ways I could never... Sign in to see full entry.

In this world, but not OF this world. Always orbiting, never landing. Close enough to feel, too far to grasp. The periphery is my home. I am seen, and just as quickly fade from view. Was I ever even there at all? Sign in to see full entry.

In a dream, we converse. It's as if we've known each other since before the beginning of time, even though I've never seen you in the waking world. In a sudden moment of silence, we stare at each other, and as I look into your eyes, I realize that you are me. My senses reel as I try to comprehend... Sign in to see full entry.

I sat and pondered the nature of time, trying to get a handle on the concept of no beginning and no end, finding no answers in my search. Suddenly, as if the finger of God had touched me on the forehead, I understood;I understood it all. My mind opened, and traveled to places it had never been. For... Sign in to see full entry.