Monday, August 19, 2024
I watched the movie and read the book. I also lived some version of this. I say some version, because everyone's version of abuse is different. I meant a person who was either attempting to belittle my history while trying to gain my trust or trying to just spill a little insight. They discussed... Sign in to see full entry.
Friday, November 11, 2022
I have to share
I have to share my babies with a man who cant see past the end of his nose. I have to share my daughters with a man who would rather hurle insults then see effort. I have to share my babies with a man who thinks hes the only one doing right. Im not a perfect parent. Im tough. I wear an outer shell... Sign in to see full entry.
Thursday, November 10, 2022
It begins with Us
Are you a Colleen Hoover fan? I just recently stumbled upon her and ive become a fan. I had just finished my Sue Grafton series and needed something to try. A fellow softball mom was reading her and i thought, maybe. Well ive officially read 6 of her books now and im on #7. I want to talk about the... Sign in to see full entry.
Monday, October 24, 2022
Luckiest Girl Alive
I heard many things about this movie but didn't really think it was something i would actually watch. My best friend ended up being the reason i did. When it was over i had a few thoughts. One was how sad she couldn't go to her mom but how common that feeling is. I'm glad she had a real friend, i... Sign in to see full entry.
Monday, October 10, 2022
The things i don't say
The things i dont say This man i have is amazing, hes so special to me in so many ways i cant explain Its actually scary how much he means to me, it makes the thought of ever losing him seem incredibly heartbreaking He has done more for me in three years then one could imagine Being loved the right... Sign in to see full entry.
Monday, October 3, 2022
Fake gold stars
What is the difference? Two years ago i suggested things, it was ignored. Two years ago i put things in motion, no reactions Two years ago You could only point fingers and i was left dodging nonsense trying to stay on track Now its your idea, and its not enough, we should do more, you are becoming a... Sign in to see full entry.
Wednesday, September 14, 2022
Just a ramble to make your head hurt
Ive been stuck in a rut for some time now. Theres a ton of words in my head but none of them are forming together like i wish they would. My life is getting better, my gripe list is getting smaller. There is definitely no fairy tales happening but breathing is getting easier, mirror glancing... Sign in to see full entry.
My energy
You signed off, you agreed Fingers crossed behind your back, you didnt mean it, no one explained things to you No final copy in your hands so it doesnt count, You think im difficult, i make things hard, i refuse to grow up Its all games to you, thats what you think im doing, playing games You... Sign in to see full entry.
Thursday, May 12, 2022
Why?
Why do i need a response of agreement when i talk? Why is it when people are listening to me, letting me walk myself through things do i feel the need to pause and wait for some sort of response? I look at them hoping i see a sign that im ok, im right, im wrong, they understand, they are confused,... Sign in to see full entry.
Friday, March 12, 2021
A little about me
If you have read any of my recent entries, you can see that im working through a few things. Ive always found writing to be very therapeutic and my process is very fluid. The things you read are past tense as of now and im currently writing them in a respective manner while trying to put shape to a... Sign in to see full entry.