https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/tryit/Whatever it is that is keeping me awake! Sounds so dramatic when I read it back... and self-absorbed. hourly12000-01-01T12:00+00:00https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/tryit/670985I keep on looking at it, keep on imagining all the steps I have to take All the while thinking I should be further along this road Paying off the money I owe is bending me out of shape. What started as a task I relished Smashing records and beating targets Has become a dreary march of attrition....https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/tryit/670691I am waiting for the right time Waiting for my body's repair. Waiting for motivation Or is it just procrastination? I am right to wait To take my time To turn things over in my mind To allow motivation to return Through patient repair of body and mind Look inside myself to know Whether or not to...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/tryit/669787When it is you own direction you are deciding. When it is your future at stake. There is only one point of view to consider. That is your own. Every slice of advice Is dispensed with a price Why was it uttered? The answer you must know Before you allow it to influence your thoughts Everything...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/tryit/669533Endless medication, the fluctuations in physical ability, thought processes and general health that go with it. Would like to be free of it all. A step outside of discipline, punished mercilessly. The simple answer is don't step outside of discipline. A break in the regime, that should be a...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/tryit/669285The room is pitch-black, Nothing can be seen. I close my hand around the doorknob. It’s cold and turns to the right. The mechanism operates There is a click and release. The door eases back toward me. A shaft of light appears around the door. It closes quickly. It’s blacker than ever. But this...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/tryit/669225I am strong when compared to the others around me. I am weak compared to you. I am intelligent compared to others. Your argument always stumps me. I dominate others. You dominate me. Each time I look for a path to excuse me from that domination, and try to follow it, you have a way to stop me. I...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/tryit/668761A pillar of light in an ocean of darkness. The light pushes onward and upward Toward and unknown goal Splinters of the light branch off when the journey is interrupted They race toward a satisfactory outcome, achieve it, and return to rejoin the journey upward. Life.https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/tryit/668756Circle like a predator. Keeping distant and quiet, Strike when the moment is right. When the perceived weakness is exposed. Use it to pressure. Use it to expose. Use it to lift yourself up, by standing on the weak. It’s a game you can play, only if the victim allows it. If the victim sees...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/tryit/668398Why waste my time? Why stay here? Why are there any demands that are external? I don’t make them of anyone else. Leave me alone. Why do you want to influence? Do you want me to be like you? So you can gain comfort from me being as miserable, on the same level, with the same understanding? They...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/tryit/668395Let it in. Let it in. Let it in. The barbs, the taunts. Let it in. The hate, the disgust. It’s what they really think, don’t try to deflect it. Let it hit home. The truth you must face. At one time or another. Don’t put up a shield, that defense is depleted with every hit. Let it in. Accept the...