https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/shypettite4139/Journal of thoughtshourly12000-01-01T12:00+00:00https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/shypettite4139/445080I try to find lost pieces of myself in the world around me. I smile to the passing me by person looking for the familiar face, hoping to see you in the crowd. Sometimes I feel hope blooming on the edge of my senses, ready to burst... It's only smile like yours, you are, still, somewhere else.https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/shypettite4139/434607The sound of drums hypnotizes me in this place under the bridge with a blue light at the door. Rhythmic pulse of beats catches me in the trap of memories that as a flash came back with a double power of love-hate mixture. Memories are good, too good to be destroyed by the bitterness of the lonely...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/shypettite4139/421789Why did I let you do it to me that I feel as such an unnecessary person in this world?https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/shypettite4139/415552It is like a bubble hover in the air, dancing with every blast of wind. It is like morning dew disapearing with sun's first kiss. It is like footprints left on the beach, unable to flee from foamy wave. The hope - so fragile and uncertain that you can hardly believe it is perennial as a grass....https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/shypettite4139/380006Without you my unstable inner world cannot find the way to calmness. Without you my heart's trembling and I cannot lull it by. Puzzled thoughts, cracked images, despair, fears and sleepless nights. World in black, blurry feelings - all it happens without you.https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/shypettite4139/378993Under the cover of moonless night I hide my eyes shining from tears. I do not want to show you my fears. I do not need to feel your mercy. The price of pride is always so high. The lonely life with shadows, that slid away, with memories, that hurt and ghosts from the past, that maul our present.https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/shypettite4139/378981Far away from the noisy city you're trying to catch the wind and fill your soul with a light, that will brighten your future. Far away from you I'm feeling so lost and uncertain. Inside battle between understanding and being worried catches me into the trap of inner anxiety.https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/shypettite4139/377423I try to believe in happiness, that grows timidly inside my heart. I water it daily with new dose of happy tears. I nourish it carefully with my hope and smiles. I am, still, surprised that, despite dark melancholy inside me, it blooms every day, giving me no chance to come back to the world of...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/shypettite4139/373583Your morning call, just to say "Hello, Sunshine", warms my heart - it used to be cold so long. Your voice as a soft flamenco serenade dispels my tendency to see the world in black. Your delicate touch inflames my senses to the point where I can only be myself. Without thinking, without analyzing,...