https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/I have always been curious about a "higher power". I have always known there is a larger than life "being" that has something "powerful" "magical" within all around~ everywhere~ I am still searching...here are some thoughts on that journeyhourly12000-01-01T12:00+00:00https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/926265I saw you in my reach Not as close as I wanted you to be but, I could feel you near with his lies and maniulation you are slipping away again i am loosing this battle I feel myself growing tired of fighting you may have to find another for I may soon be lost and gone foreverhttps://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/926099Sitting here FINALLY able to enjoy music for the first time in almost 3 years, sadly. PINK FLOYD it was. I have had A LOT of revelations, epiphanies, realization, I suppose we'll call them as of late. I have been fooling myself thinking my marriage was going to "work". It's toxic, to say the...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/925295That seems to be the only way to find any relief at the moment. I will take what I can get. My goal is to eventually have a sunflower area I can either a) run around in or b) lay amongst and stare into a Carolina blue sky...ahhhh! HEY! A girl can dream, right? I am not a complicated person. Before...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/924987Now there is a free spirit. I don't think I could ever be happier. I don't know these people, no. But their story is beautiful. I wish them all the best in the years to come. Remember to stay true to each other and yourselves! Love is a powerful thing!https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/924844Remembering the times when I would laugh out loud for real. It wasn't just a lol, it was a REAL thing! I would actually laugh! I know I can't believe it either. I talk to my children a lot about working 3 jobs while in college and all the things I had to do back then and still found time for...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/924826felt that kind of spirit since 1969... many choices from afar... looking alive behind ahead never right now too late now gone all alone...poof... oh where art thou spirit...?https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/924822One Day sprouts sprung daisies dew awaken anew rise renew water who light lingers music maddness sunflowers sing dancing again