https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ms_marty7900/hourly12000-01-01T12:00+00:00https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ms_marty7900/550429Why do my words peak your interest so? What is it about them, about me, that scares you? What are you afraid of? I am no threat to you; never have been, never will be. I blog to release the "stuff" that accumulates throughout my days, my weeks; they should mean nothing to you- yet there you are,...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ms_marty7900/549226I dreamed you were here with me; that I was enveloped in the safety of you; a sea of arms and legs encircled me, holding me closely. The warmth of your skin is addicting... The softness of your touch- intoxicating.... and I lay here, lost, in the wonder and amazement of you. You shift, ever so...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ms_marty7900/546074In this blog "he" refers to my roommate, not the man I have recently written about in other blogs. I love my roommate to death, and he feels the "need" to "take care of me"; after the hell I have been thru in the past 2 years, I can understand why, but I am at a point where I am ok, and now i...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ms_marty7900/545663I have been really good about sticking to my guns and not calling, texting or e-mailing him. i've cut off all contact, but last night was rough, I'm not gonna lie. I was working on my book and found myself incredibly emotional. And I needed him. I picked up my cell and punched in the #1, his...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ms_marty7900/544838I can't believe I actually did it, I said goodbye and MEANT it. After much thinking I have come to the conclusion that I'm worth more than what he was willing to give me. I am a beautiful, strong, independent woman, and if he can't (or won't) see the qualities I posess then it's HIS loss, not...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ms_marty7900/543258Well, "tomorrow" came and went and I still have no answers. I was so upside down from the "conversation" we had that I couldn't bring myself to answer his call. I know, pretty dumb on my part, but at the moment, it was all i could think to do. So anyway...It's pretty amazing to me how things seem...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ms_marty7900/541828He stopped by, right on time, as always...I love his punctuality. He had been working on my computer(it had a virus) and came by to return it and to bring me a photo CD of our trip to california(I had been waiting for that cd for a few weeks already). I had been preparing myself for this...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ms_marty7900/541756Is it wrong to want something not to work out for a freind?? I've known him for amost 2 years now. We have been to hell and back together. When I was dealing with ex-husband issues, he was there, when he went thru his divorce, I was there. We have been one another's confidant,sounding board,...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ms_marty7900/540491the sun peeks thru my window bringing the dawn of a new day and I lay here almost paralyzed with exhaustion- The weekend was long and hard. The twins kept me busy, their never ending amounts of energy baffles me as I wonder where it comes from. We visited my favorite hiking spot, Squaw Peak, AZ-...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ms_marty7900/538896The sun peeks thru the blinds and a sigh of relief escapes my lips. My mind, so full of so many emotions and thoughts proved to be too much to settle last night- so no sleep for me, yet again In the room I hear the deep breathing of my beautiful masterpieces; a sign that they have found their way...