https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/lizzylie/This blog is going to demonstrate what it is like to live 30 days without my husband while he is in A Substance Abuse Rehab. The trials of raising a 4 and 5 yr old by myself, the up and downs of my everyday all because my husband was selfish. I love my husband emmensly and want him bettter for us and the kids. I dont expect it to be a easy road a head but hell thats why they call it "Recovery" right?hourly12000-01-01T12:00+00:00https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/lizzylie/684396So i can breathe some sort of relief. My step mom has flown in from Florida for two weeks to help me:) I absolutely love her! Perfect timing too because these allergies are starting to really get to me! Carlos called me yesterday and left me a short message but didn't say i love you at the end....https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/lizzylie/684280I am not sure how to explain this one in all the reactions that I felt...lets start out how I feel sick as a dog. (not sure of this expression...why does someone feel sick as a dog, dogs aren't really sick?) Getting side tracked. So I cleaned out a couple of old boxes and I guess all that dust...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/lizzylie/684163So Carlos called this evening, I let him talk to the kids for a few minutes. They loved talking to him! It literally put a huge smile on their faces!! Next he gets on the phone and gives me the third degree about my decision to leave him there. It is like a prison and how dare I. Then proceeds to...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/lizzylie/684058I'm tired of all this already. I have been trying to keep things straight. I have not updated this blog in a few days because I feel as though that is time lost from my children. I received another letter from Carlos that makes me so happy. I look forward to his letters everyday. I am so...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/lizzylie/683770I RECEIVED ANOTHER LETTER IN THE MAIL TODAY WOO HOOO!!! My husband is not a romantic person at all but these letters are amazing. He says that he will get to call me on tomorrow or fri. I cant wait to hear his voice. Everyday seems to be a struggle with simple to complex things. Coming home to...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/lizzylie/683701Yes, had a glass of wine, opened the letter, and then cried my eyes out. This person who wrote this letter is the person that I fell in love with many years ago. He apologized for all the wrong he caused in our relationship and can't wait to be a better man that me and my kids deserve. He says...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/lizzylie/683682So today was just grand:( (note sarcasm.) The bus driver for Emily drove right past her stop today. It took 40 minutes for them to bring her back to me. I do feel bad for the transportation department because I was probably more frustrated with things that are going on in my own home. I was...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/lizzylie/683609I want to thank everyone for there support through blog it. I never thought that a strangers words would be so touching, truthful, and important. Everyone's kind words lifts my spirits every single day and I truly appreciate it. Thank soooo much! I take one day at a a time. I realize that life...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/lizzylie/683595Nothing could prepare for what happened today! Now that it is hours past the situation I see how it wasn't completely a big deal as I made it, but I am smart enough to know that this journey will lead me to a roller coaster of emotions. So my son loves cowboys and horses. He wanted to wear his...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/lizzylie/683490So as the day is ending, I must say we all had a pretty good day. Being surrounded by loved ones is such a relief on things that are going on behind close doors. The kids were pretty well behaved. We only had "one your mean mommy I want daddy" moment. I could deal with thousands of these moments...