https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Dawnofanewday/My thoughts and feelings about what may be the end of my marriage. I am writing this as a kind of self therapy.hourly12000-01-01T12:00+00:00https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Dawnofanewday/622070Well I am still on the sam track that I was last time that I posted. It looks like the marriage is really over though I will admit that old habits are hard to break. Even though we are disfunctional I was very used to being around him all the time. It was hard at first to go through the day...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Dawnofanewday/621079So much has happened that I am not sure were to start. I have been holding everything togeather better than I thought that I would. It has been about a week now since my husband left. We are all adjusting to our new situation. Its funny how you can spend so long with someone and never see there...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Dawnofanewday/620493Today was a though one. Last night my husband drank himself into a stuper and we ended up in a very big fight that ended with him leaving for the night. Today after work he came back for more stuff and thats when I let it all out. I finally told him it was over that I was done and I didn't want...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Dawnofanewday/620293Today I go to see the lawyer. I confess that I am nervous about going, not sure what to expect. I haven't been on in a few days so much going on. I have writen about my husbands "change" and how good he had been doing. I also wrote that I did not believe him, and I was right not to. Just when I...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Dawnofanewday/619648When darkness comes I hear your call I feel it with my body Before the sound is heard Under the stars Beneath the tress I loose myself In the sounds of the night The touch of your hand A heartbeat away A breathless wisper makes me sway I hold on tight and close my eyes A truthful pleasure like I...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Dawnofanewday/619535If you are reading this letter then I have come to the point to were I have enough.If you want honesty then I will give you that. This letter is as honest as they come. So young were we when we first met but there where bumps early on that should have warned us of the inevitable crash that would...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Dawnofanewday/619178Just when I think I am strong I feel weak. My mind has drifted often of late to the past years I have spent with my husband. We spent some time togeather as a family because of the holiday. We felt that we should for the kids and the extended family. I can feel us drifting more and more apart....https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Dawnofanewday/618773Today I have been thinking alot about Karma and what it means. I guess that it could mean that you get what you give. But I also think that karma is alot like Fate. I believe that everything happens for a reason, good or bad. I believe that all people have a purpose in life. Some people realize...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Dawnofanewday/618489Today I am feeling restless, like a caged bird that longs to use its wings. Some freinds have invited me to go out with them tonight and I think that I might. I need to get away and for just a moment forget about everything that is going on. I am actually excited about going. For so long I have...https://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/Dawnofanewday/618255I am starting to feel a little better about everything that is going on. I made an appointment to see a lawyer since I really don't know what to do or what my rights are.Its not for a couple of weeks but it gives me more time to think and be sure of what I am feeling. After fifteen years I can...