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Well, I suppose I'd like those who browse through my blog to know a little something about where my motivation to write comes from, so here I am, filling in my "About Me" page, hoping that this effort is not in vain. A lot of my work here, and unpublished, has a great amount to do with identity confusion. I've written short stories, like "The Man That Walked," to embody the emotions I've experienced while making decisions that seem to carry me against the grain in life, and quite a few poems as well, that help me clarify so many of the confusing feeling states that come with instability and various traumas that I have gone through. Please though, allow me to be clear-- I don't feel I deserve any special treatment for having had difficulties in my life-- I simply must acknowledge that events, like the death of each of my parents, have left me... sort of... searching for answers. I don't ever find any, really, while I'm writing, but what does happen that never ceases to amaze me is after I have truly delved into myself and allowed words to flow poetically from what must be my soul, the search for answers subsides, and I find myself relaxing... allowing the world to run through me freely... unobstructed by persistent worries and fears. My hope here is that when people read my writing, they may share in some of that same sensation.
Oh, and it is probably a moot point to address this, especially if you've already read some of my stuff, but I most often times write in rage. I love it. Maybe my passion feels safe encased in anger? Who knows... but... especially in blogs to come, there will be a great deal of madness. I like to think it's not excessive, because as I have written every word I have made an ethical agreement with myself that there must be sensation within me to match its meaning. Here though I must beg of you once more-- do not misconstrue me for some attention seeking adolescent who writes so that the act alone will convey a discontentment to others-- this I am not. I welcome poems that rise from me without anger, these are my most treasured works and I hope you will anticipate my posting them as much as I... however I simply felt the need to acknowledge that, yes, many of the things that I write are angry, but no, like many of the feelings you have felt and dismissed, I am not defined by what would have been a fleeting emotion sans an eternal scripture.
To sum up, I will say that after so much experience with dissociative and addictive personalities, right along side the possession of a creative penchant for wordplay, one certainly may have guessed that writing of some sort may have been an arena I was headed toward. My oath to you though is this... no matter what I post-- I will always ensure that it's meaning lies somewhere between this world and the next, between pure madness and sanity, while always pushing right against a universal truth no matter how dark the subject matter. In short, what I am trying to say, is that this blog will always remain right On The Borderline.
Enjoy.
- Location:
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United States
- Primary occupation:
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Whole Foods Team Member
- Dream occupation:
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Acting/Writing
- Hometown:
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Moreno Valley, CA
- Schools attended:
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St. Francis, St. Peter & Paul, Midland Elementary, Palm Middle, Glendora High, Riverside Adult Continuation, Orange County Community, and Hudson County Community
- I like:
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True feelings.. I like it when people come to me with real, raw emotions, because I believe it is within those moments where we catch a glimpse of where truth comes from.
- Favorite writers:
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T.S. Elliot, Robert Frost, Paulo Coelho... to be honest I am not a big reader, lol.
- Favorite books:
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The Alchemist, Tuesdays with Morrie, The Way of the Peaceful Warrior
- Favorite newspapers:
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Who reads the paper anymore?
- Favorite magazines:
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God this is embarrasing.
- Favorite music:
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Hip-Hop and Classic Rock & Roll... real Rock & Roll
- Favorite movies:
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Now we're talking... I love movies where characters truly transend... Shawshank Redemption, Good Will Hunting, Braveheart (omg), The Matrix (all three), Mr. Holland's Opus, Walking the Line, Bronx Ta
- Favorite TV shows:
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Scrubs, House-- not much into T.V either!
- Favorite teams:
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Giants (The Champions of the World), Yankees, The Knicks (when they're good)
- Favorite quote:
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There is no wrong way to break new ground.
- Gender:
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Male
- Religion:
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Catholic