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in and out
Wow.... that is really deep. And powerful.
posted by
Angela_Sargent
on October 5, 2007 at 11:32 AM
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in and out
in and out
in sometimes feels likes i am in and out of reality
wondering
who i am
trying on
the reality that will not give me hives
the hives have become more and more frequent
and the bastard
takes up so much of my nerves
and my nerves are worn so thin
and even when I try to leave this skin
and try on new skin
I find my nerves
are worn so thin
I am bleading
and scratching
and taking a pill
to ease the hives from spreading
and growing
so I can stop
scratching
just for today
I am getting worse
somedays
i think
then other days
I come out of that shit hole
i lived in with that
pig
and understand that
I put myself
there now
he did it to me
now my mind does it all by itself
and it is so hard
when you are in and out
like this
in and out
in and out
wishing you never
knew the person that let some
piece of shit
make you fear your
own skin
in and out
in nothing easy
but it is better
than dead-
most of us kill ourself
you know
we just kill ourself
because we are so ashamed
of who we are
and can not live
free
once we leave
the abuse
of domestic violence
so if we do not enter
another one
we just become
our
own best friends
or
we
kill ourself
or
we find a place to survive
and live in our
skin
even when
the hives
bubble
upon the inside of our arms
as we recall his hands
on our necks
and we think of him fucking
our bodies
and the hives spread
to the hips
as we nearly vomit thinking of how
we had to
turn
away
from that
pig
as he
thrust
his fat body into
our frail
body
leaving us
damaged
broken
parts
of a woman
so fragmented
that we
have become
in and out
of the whole
and parts
of us will never be
entire again
that
is what it is
like to survive
domestic
violence
and to know he pig
has your kid
is really
hard on your fucking nerves©
posted by
Harvardgirl_global
on October 2, 2007 at 12:08 PM
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I've been there. It gets better.
posted by
FineYoungSinger
on October 2, 2007 at 10:16 AM
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