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You have been busy perhaps or otherwise preoccupied?
Although I have been overly preoccupied with my studies & life in general, my heart is still that of a writer therefore the longing never ceases..but there has been times such as this, when the inspiration seems to literally...die. It is disheartening. I have investigated other blog sites....phooey! I canceled my subscription here for several reasons but found myself coming back to read, hoping to find inspiration from some of my favorite writers. (Your poetry having been an inspiring, spiritual connectedness for me). I have been reading regularly therefore my subscription continues, but other than reading, the inspiration is still lying dormant.
I have learned over the years not to become overly concerned at times like this, keeping in mind; for everything there is a season and this too shall pass. My mind is content with this understanding but my spirit has been weighted, actually grounded, by an overwhelming disconnectedness lately, causing an extremely heavy heart.
I went through a long period of spiritual growth (almost four years), investigating every belief I could possibly explore. Remarkably, the final curtain has returned me to the original path I started from; a spiritual truth & conviction regarding God, separated from orthodox religion yet based upon many truths from the prophets of the original Hebrew scriptures but terribly misconstrued by the mal-interpretations and mistranslation of man.
I came to the end of a very long road where the final words of my creator engraved upon my heart, my truth. Although I will live in this truth beyond my grave, the journey of seeking has ended and a new journey is about to begin. As with any ending and new beginning, there is a strange sadness that prevails, a grieving period, if you will. This is the time I find myself in presently, letting go of the seeking and awaiting the transformation into a new beginning.
Throughout my journey, my walk with God has been intimate. I have felt the presence of my creator within me. I have heard audible words, was given dreams of prophecy and the provincial hand of the presence of God surrounded me night & day, directing me and guiding me. The final words given to me almost a month ago were sorrowful.
Because I finally, fully understand who I am, the spiritual purpose I chose for this journey and the power & authority I have to guide me to my highest potential, it has rendered me almost paralyzed. The final words given to me by my creator were responsibility and accountability and by His faith (in me?), He is lifting his hand as any good father would, allowing me to walk unaided, without fear...for the first time in my life! He can never leave me but wishes to remain silent at this time. I know I have no fear, just wobbly on unsteady legs.
Not that I haven't understood the responsibility for my own life for many years now, this truth is beyond understanding. I have known for quite sometime that my childhood, parents, relationships, etc. are not to blame for the choices I have made or make in my life, nor the consequences. I retain that understanding, but now simply understanding is not enough. Now I become responsible & accountable for my journey.
Why am I sharing all of this with you, whispering it here on the backside of a comment rather than journaling it here for all to see? Truthfully, I don't know. I have been guided to other souls for so long now that I've disconnected myself from the ability to 'wing it.' lol...So here I am winging it!
Truthfully, there are two reasons why I'm here on the backside, whispering my truth to you. I was looking to you for inspiration, but you've not been here for quite sometime....and I couldn't get your post regarding hell, out of my mind.
I know each of us must find our own truth & understanding. I beseach you to lay in silence for prolonged periods of time,forgetting the ritual of prayer, clearing your mind of any and all thoughts or preconceived beliefs from orthodox religion and ask God about hell, judgement & damnation. Do this as often as possible or as long as possible until the voice of God comes from deep within your core and says, " I love you unconditionally."
I pray all is well with you my friend.
posted by
roadscross
on July 4, 2007 at 12:52 AM
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Re: Yes, one thing is certain and that is from dust you come and to dust you
Thanks
posted by
Munih
on June 20, 2007 at 10:40 PM
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Yes, one thing is certain and that is from dust you come and to dust you
must return.
posted by
Straightforward
on June 20, 2007 at 11:23 AM
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Re: Nice one
Thanks.
posted by
Munih
on June 19, 2007 at 4:41 PM
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Nice one
posted by
circuit
on June 16, 2007 at 11:13 AM
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Re: Good post !
Thanks!
posted by
Munih
on June 15, 2007 at 6:18 AM
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Good post !
posted by
afzal50
on June 15, 2007 at 5:37 AM
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Re:
Thanks!
posted by
Munih
on June 15, 2007 at 5:03 AM
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Re: Munih
I think that to live good is the lesson we must all learn.
posted by
Munih
on June 15, 2007 at 5:03 AM
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posted by
riri0322
on June 14, 2007 at 9:09 AM
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Munih
I think regardless of religion we all fear death to some extent or the unknown of what will transpire when we do die. What will become of our soul? I don’t believe in heaven and hell – at least not in black and white terms. I do hold on to the belief that if we live a good life, and if we live honourably, consciously, and compassionately our souls will soar to heights of peaceful splendour.
posted by
Troosha
on June 14, 2007 at 8:26 AM
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