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 thank you for bearing witness to my testimony, Justi, be blessed and enjoy your walk today. It's all going to be fine.

posted by Blanche. on October 21, 2006 at 3:18 PM | link to this | reply

Blanche

I am sorry I know it still hurts when you think of it. But it is in God's hands, still it is so unfair. People can do such horrible things because they have to be right and top dog in everything I guess. That is how life is without God to dump onto all that we can't carry. Be blessed.

posted by Justi on October 21, 2006 at 3:14 PM | link to this | reply

No, I've moved on from that darkness, Justi, but darkness was all I saw

when I lived there, I felt like a caged animal that had reached the end of its tether.  I couldn't see any way out, and that made me desperate. Her too, I suppose, its just that her delusion was real, according to her, and mine was not. 

I've turned all that over to God, as well as my asking to be able to forgive her, she called the police and turned me in, for no other reason than that because she wanted that apartment and could not rent one of her own, if she could "gaslight" and trigger me into an episode, which she knew me well enough to do, she could have our apartment, and all my possessions. That is hard to forgive, it  hurts so much, these betrayals.

she's out of my life, in Alaska, and I sometimes find her webstie, I know she's had her own troubles with the law, and God help me, I"m glad.

posted by Blanche. on October 21, 2006 at 3:08 PM | link to this | reply

Blanche

It is easy to believe so much when you are on the bottom and all you can see is dark above. I have been there, everything looked bleak and impossible but it wasn't. You know it took me a while to believe it wasn't all dark. Fear is the mark of bondage. Poor woman was too afraid to really live I guess. But God is above the dark. You have certainly grown a lot. You would not be so easily deceived about anything. You are a smart lady.

posted by Justi on October 21, 2006 at 3:03 PM | link to this | reply