Go to Driftwood
- Add a comment
- Go to Lines of Insomnia
Mavro, thanks for reading and for your kind words.
posted by
mneme
on October 19, 2006 at 5:21 AM
| link to this | reply
Pools in my eyes.
Your words capture me in a trap that is yours. Such delightful intensity. Such beautiful sadness. I'm glad that I've read you.
posted by
Mavro
on October 19, 2006 at 5:11 AM
| link to this | reply
Hello Taps,
I have been journalling for over twenty years and writing poetry in earnest for about two. What it does is to free my mind from constantly turning things over. Decision-making is something else... hey, I'm a Libra. Or am I just conditioning myself?
posted by
mneme
on October 16, 2006 at 8:38 PM
| link to this | reply
mneme, How sad. I can certainly empathize with you as I have been through the same thing except I never thought to write to relieve my stress. Looking back, I can see that it probably would have helped me think and to make decisions if I had kept a journal or written poetry such as yours.
posted by
TAPS.
on October 16, 2006 at 8:01 PM
| link to this | reply
It's okay muser, I've never thought you were pushing me. I welcome your thoughts and you have given me some good counsel before. I had to move back in because I had, literally, nowhere to go except to my family overseas which was also impossible with my existing committments; it's all right making short trips but an intercontinental move is huge. I've done it three times now, and you are about to be doing the same thing, so you know what's involved. Do look after yourself, and I really appreciate your comments.
posted by
mneme
on October 16, 2006 at 7:46 PM
| link to this | reply
mneme, please don't think I am pushing you...reading your posts is painful
for me...I know what it feels like when love has withered on the vine...and my heart just breaks for you.
posted by
muser
on October 16, 2006 at 5:14 PM
| link to this | reply
Muser, PS I don't pretend to be content, no one could do that all the time, but I've learned to manage things by keeping busy and we do get along in a friendly enough manner if I don't make waves. I know that doesn't sound quite right either. I don't have a lot of options just now, which is not quite the same as no choices, so I accept things for the minute. Maybe by the end of the year I'll have a better idea.
posted by
mneme
on October 16, 2006 at 4:14 PM
| link to this | reply
muser, I do see the parallels
for a long time I've tried to give myself time to get myself back to some level of normality with things and I have had to consider the big picture: family, continuity and so on. You can't do much when you live overseas. I have good days and bad.
posted by
mneme
on October 16, 2006 at 4:09 PM
| link to this | reply
mneme...sometimes I think you are my parallel universe! Don't you see that
by not moving...by not getting up...you give the impression that everything is as it shouold be? By not speaking up, you are perpetuating a false image...I know first-hand about this...it is a terrible state when Love
has gone, and there is a void inside you where it once resided. It comes down to this: "How long can I project this lie that I love him...that I'm happy..." The pain can get intense...
posted by
muser
on October 16, 2006 at 3:59 AM
| link to this | reply
Lucinda, twisted mom and naorem, thank you for your support. I'm okay most of the time, things sometimes get on top of me.
posted by
mneme
on October 14, 2006 at 5:40 PM
| link to this | reply
Deeply moving, I have to admit I cried...
posted by
Lucinda_Price
on October 14, 2006 at 10:13 AM
| link to this | reply
posted by
twisted_mom
on October 14, 2006 at 7:30 AM
| link to this | reply
sad
i feel insomnia too
posted by
naorem
on October 14, 2006 at 6:49 AM
| link to this | reply