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Ahhh, Natalie Cole.
I love that song. That song brings back totally different memories of a totally different boy. Isn't it funny how music works? I think it was a remake, and after Natalie, Anita Baker did it. I am so lucky to have loved so much in my lifetime. I know people my age who have never really had that kind of love. I forget that when things get rocky and lonely. Quirky said that things never really leave us energetically. I think that's true. Love weaves itself into our souls and our skin and our blood....building like fabric on a loom. I think it makes us, piece by piece, into who we are. Who we grow into. At the time I had to walk away from Todd, I knew that he was a part of me forever. I knew it was big and life changing, but not in what way yet. Looking back, I see what I learned from him and from that experience.
Some days, with certain people, it doesn't seem like any time has passed. Like you just saw them and will see them again tonight. Perhaps for dinner. I miss him so profoundly sometimes that it's hard to believe how long ago it was since I've seen him. Other times I feel him with me. Lately, I feel something dark has happened. It lives with me so much. I send my love and support to him out on the wind and hope he feels it and uses it up.
Thank you so much for your sweet comments. I'm always happy when you can stop by. 
posted by
Temple
on September 18, 2004 at 1:05 AM
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Temple, these soul shaking loves never leave, do they? I'm old and
carry my own. Je regret, as they say. Your writing is room filling and soul quaking and real. All I can do is sigh over good loves lost and ruined in this crazy mixed up world of today. I find that these feelings for the need to communicate always portend something, as you say.
This reminds me of that song by (uh oh, senior moment), I can see her face on the album cover, "You can reach me by caravan, cross the desert like an Arab man...." anyway, the song played out in my mind as I read your post's ending.....little sobs flit around inside my chest right now. I miss my fellow, too.
posted by
benzinha
on September 18, 2004 at 12:47 AM
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My sweet LadyK.
That's all you need to say....and well said, too. I'm just thrilled to see your footprint here. That makes me happy. (((((((((Tink))))))))))
posted by
Temple
on September 14, 2004 at 9:52 PM
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Wildwoman, how nice to see you. :)
You can't get much better than soulful for me. My deepest appreciation.
posted by
Temple
on September 14, 2004 at 9:50 PM
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(((((((((((Temple)))))))))))))
That's the best thing I know to say for now.
posted by
LadyKenobi
on September 14, 2004 at 1:17 PM
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Temple
Very soulfully written. I hope you get your message.
posted by
Wildwoman_Laloba
on September 14, 2004 at 8:51 AM
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Thank you so much Original.
That's the best wish for me I've heard in a long time.
I hope so, too. I really, really do.
posted by
Temple
on September 13, 2004 at 2:01 PM
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Temple,
Truly from the heart....I wish you well and hope that things eventually shine brightly.
posted by
Original_Influence
on September 13, 2004 at 1:50 PM
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Symphony, you are always such a sweetheart.
Thank you for the wonderful compliments and the support. Yes, I am okay. I miss him and want to know he's okay, but it's a dance I know all to well, unfortunately. You are a bit of a survivor yourself, I think.
You take good care, too.
posted by
Temple
on September 13, 2004 at 7:31 AM
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Hi groucho!
Nice to see you here. Thank you so much for reading. I appreciate your support and kind words, as I'm sure Todd would...where ever he may be.
posted by
Temple
on September 13, 2004 at 7:24 AM
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Wow, Cassie, thank you so much.
Your supportive words and heartfelt comments have always made me feel so good. I hope you weren't reading at work or your co-workers are going to think you are off your noodle.
You will achieve anything you aspire to, of that I'm sure. Hugs to you also, friend. Take care.
posted by
Temple
on September 13, 2004 at 7:22 AM
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wow that was wonderful deep, sad writing
you are a survivor, I hope you are ok?....take care
posted by
_Symphony_
on September 13, 2004 at 6:44 AM
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very moving temple
you and he are in my thoughts... thanks to Ca88andra for commenting thus directing me here...
posted by
tbgroucho
on September 13, 2004 at 2:53 AM
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Temple, my tears are falling and there is a serious chance my contact lenses will wash down my cheeks. You have lived an amazing life with incredible strength and to be able to write about it in such a way, touching so many raw nerves, in yourself and your readers, is a skill I aspire to. Take care my friend. *hugs*
posted by
Ca88andra
on September 13, 2004 at 2:49 AM
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