http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/skye01 Having Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Caring for my husband who had Parkinsons and Alzhiemer's and the changes we face each day. Meditations for stress relief and care for the soulhourly12000-01-01T12:00+00:00http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/634671A full day. I finished all my shopping for the cruise this morning. I had found a black dress on line at jCPenneys but decided not to buy it then went to the Walmart and found a dress that looked almost exactly the same and was on sale for 11.00. I bought a glitzy rhinestone button to sew on it...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/634314Actually a hard week. I am so exhausted but cannot really rest. My balance is off and my mind is fogged and scattered. Guess I'll just rest and watch NCIS.http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/633886I managed to reach a state of bliss meditating this week. It was as if I connected to Richard and since I felt a strong connection of Love and have a very peaceful feeling descending over me and the house. I have been sorting Richards clothes and I'm finding it to be very exhausting. I guess it...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/633365I've been invited on a cruise by my ex. It started with an invitation for May and I said probably and then he moved it to December. I was very conflicted and was not sure I am emotionally or physically ready to go. He came up to go out to eat with Brooke and Scott and me last weekend and I was...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/633232The funeral home called today and Richard's Death Certificates were ready. I filled out all the paperwork to assign insurance to pay for the funeral expenses. I then went to the Cemetery and picked out a background for a memory picture of Richard with one of my poems. I forgot his DD214 to order...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/633131I was reading an article on Beliefnet about offering support for the grieving. One of the tips was to bring soup and ice cream because having to chew food is overwhelming. I thought I was just going through a strange phase. Just the thought of chewing food is nauseating. I miss Richard so much....http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/633030Weekend visitors. Halloween party tonight so I get to keep the grand dogs. It is so strange to just go out whenever I want to. Brooke called and invited me over to eat and watch TN and AL play before their Halloween party and it took me a few minutes to realize I could go without making plans for...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/632170I've watched you die day by day; these many, many months. Watching, waiting, praying for life, praying for a peaceful death and knowing death would come one day or night, announced or unannounced. The journey long and lessons learned before acceptance came. The fear of death kept you here each...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/632017I cannot believe the audacity of some people. Buffalo Ridge Baptist Church had the balls to send me a form letter based on Richard's obituary proselytizing their church with a pamphlet asking "How to Kow You Are Going to Heaven? and a schedule of their church services. Had they read the obituary...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/631916Exert from "The Journey Home." The above path taken by those who are dying is also taken by their family and friends who loved them. As you watch your loved one die, a part of you dies also. You will experience the same stages of grief because they are sick and they are not getting well. The...