http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/skye01 Having Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Caring for my husband who had Parkinsons and Alzhiemer's and the changes we face each day. Meditations for stress relief and care for the soulhourly12000-01-01T12:00+00:00http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/636243I couldn't quite get organized today so I just rested. Brooke was sick and had to go to the Dr. this morning and she has bronchitis again. The Dr. put her off for a week so she can rest and get well. She's had this for 2 months now. She called later in the day and said she had adopted an elderly...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/636136I had to go to the funeral home again today to sign another assignment sheet for the insurance so it will pay for Richards funeral. I put the wrong number down the first time. I bought Joe's Christmas present. A framed picture like the one we used for Richard's Celebration of life Service. Then...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/636031Tonight was the Thanksgiving Dinner at Church and after another afternoon of panic atttacks, I fixed two black forest chocolate pies and went. Again it was so nice to be welcomed back after my long absence. I realized tonight that I have never felt more a part and a belonging to something in a...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/635907It's amazing what a good nights sleep will do. I got my last rose planted today and got the house straightened up, dusted and vacuumed. My grief counselor from the VA came today and we had a good talk. I seem to have moved out of the shock stage into reality. I guess that was why yesterday was so...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/635758Panic Attacks. I hate them. Tomorrow will be a better day. Fibro flare, EFT helped calm the total body restlessness and calmed the pain.http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/635644I went to church today for the first time since Richard got so sick we couldn't go. I grew up in this church since I was 3 years old. It really felt nice to be there. It was like putting on a warm, comfortable sweater. It was nice to be welcomed back so warmly. I had kept in touch through our...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/635532I got my closet put back together. Son, Blake, came over with cousin Shane and put my shelves back up. I managed to declutter and sort and put everything in a container so I can find it quickly. At least my stuff is not all over the floor and in the corners. Next week I need to get the Haven of...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/635323What a roller coaster! Anyway, I finished painting the closet and then I went to see my massage therapist and had a mineral salt and sugar scrub. Absolutely Heaven. My skin is so soft now and it was a great pain reliever. I felt Richards presence during my massage session. He held my hand. Mona...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/635132All I had to do was BREATHE. The question looming over me since yesterday was, how much strength do I have left? After twenty-four hours of numbness and shut down, with a single breath and a jacuzzi soak, the answer came to me. I don't have to have any more strength because "I" cannot change what...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/skye01soulsearching/635070I had to go get my passport card this morning. As I was pulling out of my driveway, I saw my KiKi lying dead in the middle of the road. He was lying exactly where my big Gray got killed. I had to call Blake to come get him. I couldn't do it. So I have to ask, how much Strength do I have left?...