http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/pelagus_darkness/my dark side, reflection of a life that seems so hard to deal with most of the time.hourly12000-01-01T12:00+00:00http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/pelagus_darkness/572506the way to deCease how weiRd the way i've needed to make myself siCk since i've met you it hasn't been much better eXCept for the first weeks then i took you to soMe deep uNdergRounds to soMe hell i'M hating i thought yOu would heal me & i made yOu siCk wHat way can we take could yOu hOld my hand...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/pelagus_darkness/571834rest in peaCe i'M so cOld i'M so siCk i'd rather die then feel this way my head's warM & i'd like yOu to hold me but yOu're asleep last night i needed yOur arMs around me but yOu didn't hear my call now i'd like to sleep in a bed & be covered with warM blankets i'd like to sleep all day long &...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/pelagus_darkness/571270dreaM of reality i onCe fell in love with a dreaM & this dreaM caMe tRue for it was not a dreaM only a proJeCtion in a coMing reality i did not see the pain i'd grow iNsIde this life i did not see the needs i'd creaTe pain & agOny aRe such a cRuel coMpany but i never seeM to let theM go © pElAgUShttp://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/pelagus_darkness/570686rainy morning i'd like to be in a cOrner hidden from everyoNe to stop seeing theM & only stare at the rain covering the gRound. i'd like to sMell the suMmer rain early in the morning sitting under a tRee gReen & high sTrong enough to proteCt me from the sTorM. i'd like to see long liNes of light...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/pelagus_darkness/568801wHen deAth asTounds there's an iNvisiBle cry out is the meMory of my miNd those people around me i can't hear theM my liFe is full of lOve but today, iT's nowhere i can't find a reason the pain of my body is too sTrong. i can't deCide what to do there are so many sOunds my head reverberates the...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/pelagus_darkness/568516falling dOwn i'M in a self desTruCt mode i'd be gOne iF only my miNd was clear i can't sTand myself i can feel the siCkness iT's wrong iF i could kill myself i'M waiting silenCe is nowHere i'M eChoing the viOlenCe yet only toward myself my miNd huRts my body too iT's everywHere & i can't know i...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/pelagus_darkness/567584trauMa, unknOwn everything seeMs deadly wrong since i caMe baCk i'M getting siCk i'M feeling wrOng i can't find myself & i'M not craving for making myself siCk. i don't know where to sTart i don't even know if there's soMething to sTart i don't know where to go i'M not feeling right. this sHort...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/pelagus_darkness/567363being baCk for a while i could deal with so many things during those 2 weeks on the rOad so different from my usual journeys tough difficult cOld my miNd has a hard tiMe dealing with everything i can't sit sTill anymore & i'M feeling intoXiCated i only want to feel peaCe iNsIDe. all those faCes...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/pelagus_darkness/567188fiRst moRning, baCk in paRis i had an odd dreaM last night that i can't reMeMber. haunting & dark is all i can recall. i had an odd feeling before i fell asleep i needed hiM to hOld me tight. making lOve was such a delight it was like having been deprived for weeks i'M loving hiM so much. then...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/pelagus_darkness/567014wHen miseRy sTrikes my belly huRts i'M in deep pain i can't sTay for ever far from civiliZation iT'll take me forever to catch up with it all my belly swells my EyEs are falling i'd like to sleep for days & maybe just never waKe up. © pElAgUS