Free Spirit? Pay Here... - Blogithttp://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/I have always been curious about a "higher power". I have always known there is a larger than life "being" that has something "powerful" "magical" within all around~ everywhere~ I am still searching...here are some thoughts on that journeyhourly12000-01-01T12:00+00:00Almost there...so i thoughthttp://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/926265I saw you in my reach Not as close as I wanted you to be but, I could feel you near with his lies and maniulation you are slipping away again i am loosing this battle I feel myself growing tired of fighting you may have to find another for I may soon be lost and gone foreverComfortably Numb, NO JUST NUMB AND DUMB!http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/926099Sitting here FINALLY able to enjoy music for the first time in almost 3 years, sadly. PINK FLOYD it was. I have had A LOT of revelations, epiphanies, realization, I suppose we'll call them as of late. I have been fooling myself thinking my marriage was going to "work". It's toxic, to say the...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/925323Finding myself again so far has been enlightening. I realized with all the struggles with our finances and life racing by the kids have never really seen the "real" me. Being carefree, fun, playful, exciting etc...you know what I mean. I want them to think of me like that too. Not the exhausted,...Meditate...Stretch...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/925295That seems to be the only way to find any relief at the moment. I will take what I can get. My goal is to eventually have a sunflower area I can either a) run around in or b) lay amongst and stare into a Carolina blue sky...ahhhh! HEY! A girl can dream, right? I am not a complicated person. Before...Miley is married...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/924987Now there is a free spirit. I don't think I could ever be happier. I don't know these people, no. But their story is beautiful. I wish them all the best in the years to come. Remember to stay true to each other and yourselves! Love is a powerful thing!come out where ever you are...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/924844Remembering the times when I would laugh out loud for real. It wasn't just a lol, it was a REAL thing! I would actually laugh! I know I can't believe it either. I talk to my children a lot about working 3 jobs while in college and all the things I had to do back then and still found time for...where art thou spirit?http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/924826felt that kind of spirit since 1969... many choices from afar... looking alive behind ahead never right now too late now gone all alone...poof... oh where art thou spirit...?to dance again...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/myfirstry1049/924822One Day sprouts sprung daisies dew awaken anew rise renew water who light lingers music maddness sunflowers sing dancing again