http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ladyofshalott6856/These things are important to me, and being the voyeurs you all are, you'll read about it....hourly12000-01-01T12:00+00:00http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ladyofshalott6856/574807A is a man I have known for 4 years. He is, or was a friend of my ex. I have written about him before. We have been connected in some way for this time. backstory: he and my husband at the time were in the fire academy together. We had a get together at our house, he came, we met. Then at the end...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ladyofshalott6856/572489This exact phrase was said to me last night. Um? And let me just be clear that there wasn't any build up to this. We weren't talking about our days and then there was a lull in the conversation to which I said, so talk to me about something and then he replied with that.....No, that was pretty...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ladyofshalott6856/572425Hi all, missed ya again! I have been going through some MAJOR life changes. Ok I will summarize. I moved to Canada, or I guess I could say moved back to Canada. It's bittersweet but I know it's the best. We came for a vacation to visit my parents like we do every year, we being me and the boys...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ladyofshalott6856/550720SO my marriage is complete and utter SHIT. It leaves me exhausted and hating myself for being weak and spineless. I am faced everyday with the fact that I am not taking care of myself, which in turns leads to the fact that I am not taking proper care of my kids. I hate it and hate myself. Ok...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ladyofshalott6856/550296last weekend was bad. I'm dreading this one. Too much time for the four of us to spend together. last weekend he got mad. MAD. Threw a raw hamburger patty at the wall. DId you know that that shit adheres to the wall? So gross. Although now that I remember it was buffalo and not cow, maybe the cow...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ladyofshalott6856/510856For my birthday I received a new journal. It's beautiful. Black Leather, nice sized page to write on. I love it. However the thought of writing in it is scaring me. I see it sitting there, taunting me, calling me a chicken. To me a journal is the place you hold nothing back, it's the safe zone....http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ladyofshalott6856/488435All things that will be covered in this post. I figured since I have been so BAD about writing in my journal by hand, that maybe if I do it here it will have the same effect. i realize that then you all are privvy to things in my life you couldn't care less about, but hang on and let me see if I...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ladyofshalott6856/482484As a girl, I thought I would marry a prince. I would have a beautiful dress, and he would be charming. My life definitely did not follow that script. I married too young, and too fucked up. The funny thing is, it was totally within my personality to do something like that. When I told my best...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ladyofshalott6856/461777Swinging is an interesting concept. Married couples trading partners. Weird. I' have watched many episodes of Real Sex and researched the swinging lifestyle. Couples who are in love and committed to one another in every aspect of a relationship, except for sex. They even have swinging...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/ladyofshalott6856/460789When two people who are as fucked up as my husband and I are are together bad things happen. We, and I know other people so it too, play a game of tit for tat. He hurts me so I hurt him, and vice versa. Don't do this. It isn't a fun game. Like I said outside the bedroom, no good comes of this....