http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/jollyjeff6115/Whatever is on Jeff's mind that dayhourly12000-01-01T12:00+00:00http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/jollyjeff6115/634799Canceled plans with Lisa because I wasn't feeling well. Took a nap, feeling a bit better now. Hopefully, I'll make it to work tomorrow, just a few days left maybe. Looks like I'll get that paid holiday on Wednesday, that will be good. Playing matchmaker with Gloie and Jay B. Maybe that should be...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/jollyjeff6115/634628Felt pretty good this morning but now I'm going down just a bit. I was thinking back this morning and I think I've really been even sicker than I've acknowleged these last few years. I always got better and every time I did, thought I was better for good. I was going to go to the Red Cross and...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/jollyjeff6115/634520Feeling better now after having insomnia last night. I'm not too worried about it. It's not worth losing sleep over. I wonder if I'm feeling better because it's Friday. If that's it I should be feeling good all the time after I retire. That Wife Swap is an interesting show. Always uplifting in...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/jollyjeff6115/634425Hooray! I've been approved for disability retirement. I let folks worry me a little that I may not get approved but I pretty much knew I would be. It's pretty clear that I'm too sick to do the job. Gotta work a few more days until all the I's are crossed and the t's are dotted. I won't have to...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/jollyjeff6115/634295I've resisted it this long but I'm going to the hospital in a little bit. Usually I only go if I'm having suicidal thoughts. I'm not thinking of suicide now but my bouts of depression are coming more often and lasting longer. I hope they can do something Anita's latest email seems to be pushing...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/jollyjeff6115/634212I was going to go to the hospital but I changed my mind. I'm not feeling that badly. I'll go tomorrow if I don't feel any better Nami meeting was very worthwhile this evening. I think I'll keep going. I'm glad it meets every week. Got a couple of chuckles from my joke about wanting to retire at...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/jollyjeff6115/634082Not depressed today but I was up all night so I stayed home today. Maybe daylight savings time threw me off. I appreciate everyone's advice about being honest with Lisa and Anita. They both know about the other even though I haven't even been out with Anita yet. No secrets. So by not going in...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/jollyjeff6115/633903I feel pretty darn good today. This is why I waited so long to apply for disability. I would get better and I would assume I would stay that way. Wrong! It could be that I'm feeling well because it's Sunday, but I've had plenty of other weekends where I've felt like crap. The decision on going to...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/jollyjeff6115/633794Both Mom and Dad are telling me not to count on being able to retire. I guess they're right, I could be turned down. If they do turn me down though, it shows they truly don't understand how sick I am. It's very clear that I'm too sick to do the job and if they don't see that something's wrong....http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/jollyjeff6115/633701So it turns out I'm not retired--yet. Apparently November 1 was just a rough estimate. Maybe I should have been more careful to have them specify November 1 of what year. So I roll merrily on spending 'bout half my time at work and half in bed sick watching reruns of The King of Queens. Meanwhile...