http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/LUBY123/CONTINUING STORY OF LUBY123 AND HER NEED TO UNDERSTAND AND FIND THE MIDDLE OF HER RELATIONSHIPS(A ROMANTIC OR PASSIONATE ATTACHMENT)hourly12000-01-01T12:00+00:00http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/LUBY123/623052Realizing that some or maybe all of what my addiction said could be true. I knew what i said and did next could change our relationship(a romantic or passionate attachment). I moved to the couch and looked into his eyes and said i know i have not trusted in you and put up boundaries between us....http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/LUBY123/622776After a much needed nap and checking my messages i got up enough never to call my addiction. He must have still been sitting my the phone he answered on the first ring. Hi baby i will see you in awhile. As i waited for my addiction to arrived i thought of all the things i would say. It had been...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/LUBY123/622460After the time spent with Leon i realized that i have wasted for to much time out of my life. When will i stop being a hopeless romantic and accept that love is job a 24/7 job. You have to work at it every day to make it work. There is no vacation time or lay off with love. I need to clear my...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/LUBY123/621885Today i write from my heart because my heart is heavy today. Today i want to talk about Love. Love we have for each other in these tough economy times Love is what we need to create more than jobs. Our economy could become better if we act on our resource that is plentiful. It is free and can...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/LUBY123/621243I got up early the next morning i needed to feel the fresh air on my face. Today i was going to visit mama's grave and finish my unfinished business with Leon. I had not called my addiction since i been down here. Being here always makes me feel closer to where i came from and more aware of who i...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/LUBY123/620967The meal was pleasant and the conversation easy after Toni's coming out. Lane was all about his career and if he had a partner. As the waitress was bringing the check i glanced the door and there stood Leon with a woman. Rita spotted him at he same time. Girl do you see what i see? Yes i see what...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/LUBY123/620944On the ride to the restaurant Lane was very interested in my small town. Girl what do you do here when the sun goes down asked Lane. Why, we water our horses, turn on the oil lamp lights and read the bible this is the bible belt you know. No i mean it just seems so quiet and consistent, You mean...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/LUBY123/620393After Rita's remark about closure i realized she was right for a change. I had not done closure in the past. Leon was a good example of that i would need to see him while here. Leon i know i don't want this man but closing the door on that part of my life has been stalled. Putting closure on hold...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/LUBY123/620025When i woke from my nap the ladies were on the porch. Rita said i love the porches on the houses down south. They wrap all way around the house the sun comes in on one side and sets on the other. Yeah it is nice out here in the evening and even better in the morning. So ladies what are going to...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/LUBY123/619693The rest of the ride was silent. We arrived and Ray was at the house. What's up brother? Hi sunshine. The sun is sitting i am tired. Ladies Ray.Ray ladies. You remember Rita and Lane or heard me speak of them. He is kind cute girl. Down Lane he is a player. So maybe i want to play this week.Well...