"I Am Deeper Then The Surface" - Blogithttp://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/IAmDeeper_ThenTheSurface/This blog is just me, the real me, from the depth of my mind & heart as I transition through a divorce. This is my story on a daily basis. The other blogs are my artistic expressions of my struggle. My artistic side came through at the age of 3 when I started to play the piano, grammer school the flute, junior high drawing/painting and high school a love of photography. Unfortunately, I never followed my heart , I was not encouraged since art & music were not secure careers. Spent my life in business & became more miserable as the years progressed. When I separated I took a leap of faith & jumped into my art. My livelihood is art, but failure is not an option for me. I will continue to strive until my art is my life and my life is my art.hourly12000-01-01T12:00+00:00It's All Good...(Leaving Blog it)http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/IAmDeeper_ThenTheSurface/695179It's all good. Everything...and anything. I don't stress like I use to. Well, I do get frustrated but not on a level like before. Of course, that may change at anytime but I'm trying to control that with a different mindset. But...it's all good babe. For Real!!! You put a smile on my face. You...2 Sided Coin...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/IAmDeeper_ThenTheSurface/695122Duality...2 sides to every story. Night and day. Black and white. Heads and tails. Yin and yang. Why do we deny the side of us which we don't like? What did you say? Why? Just stop....right now! Just go back and crawl under that rock. What don't you see? What don't you understand? I hate...The Real Caramel...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/IAmDeeper_ThenTheSurface/695035Mmmm...the real caramel!!! This is how I got the nickname. Kissed by the sun...again and again. This is not my darkest, either! I'm like Baskin Robbins...Baby, I can be french vanilla, cinnamon, caramel. I do chocolate, but I can't be cocoa for you, not in my gene pool; ). OLD SOL...loves me and...I Blush...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/IAmDeeper_ThenTheSurface/694997I blush!!! I do!!! You just don't see the rosy in my cheeks. I certainly won't divulge what makes me blush. One on one...I can be quite different. I have a shy side. A vulnerable side. A sensitive side. When I'm around a crowd, I'm myself...just a different self. One that has to survive amongst a...Shake My Head...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/IAmDeeper_ThenTheSurface/694885SMH... Aghhhh Shit...here it comes!!! The attitude... Head shaking...lips puckering...neck twisting. Run for cover! Getting caught in that vortex of a tornado, that is her unstoppable mouth...after you've worked her up to a frenzy. Yikes!!! 0 tolerance...Oh man, I just can't help myself...The Ache...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/IAmDeeper_ThenTheSurface/694789X...marks the spot where the ache fills me. A sudden panic and overwhelming but, bubbling feeling takes over my mind. That... there are tougher roads ahead, that I know I will still have to face. My heart, a tight knot that attempts to release the tears that my mind refuses to obey. The battle...Feeling You...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/IAmDeeper_ThenTheSurface/694724Yeah...I'm feeling you. Think about you, a lot of the time! No joke...I wonder about you too. A man in my future. What you're really like when you're talking to others and not even thinking about me. How tall you are and how I will feel, standing next to you. Your scent and how it will make me...Temptation...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/IAmDeeper_ThenTheSurface/694671Mmm Mmm Mmm...DAMN!!! Nothing like temptation just slapping you in the face and saying WTF? Are you awake B*tch? You sure as hell are now!!! That slap just loosened any clarity from my mind. All I can think about is...drop that damn pen down and stop effen writing gurl! Go have some fun and...For The Benjamins...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/IAmDeeper_ThenTheSurface/694573All about the BENJAMINS?...Money makes the world go round!!! Why couldn't it just be love? Love is free and infinitely more rewarding...maybe, in a perfect world that would work. Money...a resource that contains the power to influence. Socially recognized for that power and value...thus drawing...Yeahhhh Babyyyyyy...http://www.blogit.com/Blogs/Blog.aspx/IAmDeeper_ThenTheSurface/694513That's what I'm talking about!!! You put me in that place...that gets me riled up, wrangled up all in your lasso. I'm beginning to think you're a cowboy...yeeee haaa!!! Lips start to pucker like they got a mind of their own. I get perky and start twitching....no teasing allowed!!! It's not fair,...