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Tuesday, September 14, 2010

The debt monster

I keep on looking at it, keep on imagining all the steps I have to take All the while thinking I should be further along this road Paying off the money I owe is bending me out of shape. What started as a task I relished Smashing records and beating targets Has become a dreary march of attrition. The... Sign in to see full entry.

Friday, September 10, 2010

Biding my time

I am waiting for the right time Waiting for my body's repair. Waiting for motivation Or is it just procrastination? I am right to wait To take my time To turn things over in my mind To allow motivation to return Through patient repair of body and mind Look inside myself to know Whether or not to... Sign in to see full entry.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Independance

When it is you own direction you are deciding. When it is your future at stake. There is only one point of view to consider. That is your own. Every slice of advice Is dispensed with a price Why was it uttered? The answer you must know Before you allow it to influence your thoughts Everything... Sign in to see full entry.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Caged

Endless medication, the fluctuations in physical ability, thought processes and general health that go with it. Would like to be free of it all. A step outside of discipline, punished mercilessly. The simple answer is don't step outside of discipline. A break in the regime, that should be a... Sign in to see full entry.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

The door to the mind

The room is pitch-black, Nothing can be seen. I close my hand around the doorknob. It’s cold and turns to the right. The mechanism operates There is a click and release. The door eases back toward me. A shaft of light appears around the door. It closes quickly. It’s blacker than ever. But this gives... Sign in to see full entry.

Not quite the alpha male.

I am strong when compared to the others around me. I am weak compared to you. I am intelligent compared to others. Your argument always stumps me. I dominate others. You dominate me. Each time I look for a path to excuse me from that domination, and try to follow it, you have a way to stop me. I... Sign in to see full entry.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

The laser beam of the mind

A pillar of light in an ocean of darkness. The light pushes onward and upward Toward and unknown goal Splinters of the light branch off when the journey is interrupted They race toward a satisfactory outcome, achieve it, and return to rejoin the journey upward. Life. Sign in to see full entry.

Hunter/Hunted

Circle like a predator. Keeping distant and quiet, Strike when the moment is right. When the perceived weakness is exposed. Use it to pressure. Use it to expose. Use it to lift yourself up, by standing on the weak. It’s a game you can play, only if the victim allows it. If the victim sees... Sign in to see full entry.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Misunderstood

Why waste my time? Why stay here? Why are there any demands that are external? I don’t make them of anyone else. Leave me alone. Why do you want to influence? Do you want me to be like you? So you can gain comfort from me being as miserable, on the same level, with the same understanding? They want... Sign in to see full entry.

Let it in.

Let it in. Let it in. Let it in. The barbs, the taunts. Let it in. The hate, the disgust. It’s what they really think, don’t try to deflect it. Let it hit home. The truth you must face. At one time or another. Don’t put up a shield, that defense is depleted with every hit. Let it in. Accept the... Sign in to see full entry.

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