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Sunday, August 17, 2008

Can I Runaway?

I want to runaway to the beach. I want a vacation. I want to think of no one but my self. But my guilt of these wants brings a fear that is hard to overcome. It stifles my breathing and freezes my muscles. I cannot move. I have no right to want these things at this time. I have responsiblities to bear. But in it all I've lost me and I have no sense of self. I have no right to want. Sign in to see full entry.

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Sunday, August 3, 2008

Weariness

I am so weary, how do I go on? I cry out to God but answers I cannot hear. I call upon my Guides and Angels to bring the messages from God. I think I want to give up. The pain is unbeareable and I have no strength left within my body. How do I get my cells to renew? Please God give me strength. I just want to give up. I cannot place Richard in a nuring home for I could not stand the guilt. I cannot go without any more sleep. I do not have the strength to reach my goals I want. Goals to bring me... Sign in to see full entry.

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Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Wash Over Me

The blue, blue, blue of the ocean, of how I long to see. But most of all, I wish to feel the ocean tide to meet my feet. Lulling me to sleep with the rhythmic motion of the water. Cooling, contrasting between the hot sand and the coolness of the water. Bring dreams of weightlessness and freedom from all cares. Burdens float away; never to return. Rise cool water and wash over me, take away all pain. Free me from this prison that keeps my body in chains. Hypnotize me with your sound of wave... Sign in to see full entry.

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Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Wishes

Each day gets longer and no rest in sight. A little sleep; just to close my eyes without interuption. But just as soon the day will come and I'll have nothing to do but rest. Instead of rest, I'll wish he were here. For lonliness does not give one rest. Only empty hours with nothing to do. We always want what we cannot have. When does balance and harmony come? Sign in to see full entry.

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Monday, July 21, 2008

Just a Little Rest

I am so tired and I must rest so I can care for you. My soul's determination make weak by this fragile body we inhabit. The daily grind upon my joints to lift and help you walk; takes it toll in pain. Dampening my spirit to give you all I have. The survival of the body and self becomes paramount. Oh, to be a hero and give my all for you. But then who would turn you in the night and help you from your bed. In stranger's hands you would be, could I trust them to care with all their love; This I... Sign in to see full entry.

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Thursday, July 10, 2008

Beyond Imagination

Sitting quietly connected to this sandy beach. I watch the energy of the earth sink below the skyline. Struck in awe of the beauty of this sunset. The wonderment of how each day begins and ends. How does this fiery ball know how to move across the sky? Rising early morn and setting in the eve as if on cue. How much greater is the energy that control this daily trek? Beyond imagination of this tiny soul............ How great is He that holds the sun and all the planets in the palm of his hand?... Sign in to see full entry.

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Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Choices

As I awake to each new day, rain, snow, or shine. It is my choice to release the light within and as my light shines so does the Light of God. And these Lights meet and strength is gained for me to be stronger and brighter than I could ever hope to be. For God wishes to answer every choice we make. He does not judge the choice good or bad. His wish is happiness for every choice made and we choose how to act. So if our choice is to hide our light because the day looks bleak, there is no light to... Sign in to see full entry.

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Learning in Darkness and Sharing in Light

The lessons of darkness are the most import. In the darkness, we are the most creative. In the darkness, we learn self-reliance. As we travel through darkness, like the three blind men of old each learn a part of the whole. As the tunnel shows light; we see others traveling. each with a story to tell. Each story than fits like a puzzle and as we give of the self; we each become part of the whole; until the next tunnel appears and lone lessons to learn again. skye2008 Sign in to see full entry.

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Tuesday, July 8, 2008

These Halls

I've walked these halls so many times. Delivering care to so many. Pain pills and pillow for comfort. Cool cloth for a fevered brow. Blankets, clean sheets and a pillow fluff. Blood pressures, pulses and respirations. Assessment of skin color and bleeding. Dressing changes and pressure packs. Holding a hand of the dying one whose been left alone. So many faces of smiles and tears; each facing their fear in their own unique way. Each helped by a pair of caring hands, a smile, kind eyes and ears... Sign in to see full entry.

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Prayer of Love

May the vibrations of the kindness and love you send to others be multiplied a million times. May your soul be filled with happiness and peace beyond compare. May all negative energies that might come your way be intercepted by the Angels and taken to a place of Love to be transformed and recycled. May any pain you feel be surrounded by the Light and melted away by the warmth of Love and gently flow away. May your Guides and Angels life you up and float you on a cloud of Healing; above the rocky... Sign in to see full entry.

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Vibrations of Love

This world is one of vibrations; each having their very own. But always in this life a duplicate exists. We seek out in others the vibrational tone to compliment our own. An unknowing, knowing that this will make us whole. How rare indeed the two should meet and intertwine their sounds. The beauty of the energy that radiates to all. The wonderment of why this is; so opposite they seem. Yet, looking past their outer shells that carry the spirit within. The Law of Attraction has once again proved... Sign in to see full entry.

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Monday, July 7, 2008

Endless Nights

I remember the time when the night seemed endless because you were not there. My heart and body longed to feel your touch; being held all night in your arms. Now all these years later, I long to see the day. As your body and mind leave this earth, our nights are filled with fear. The comfort of touch from all our years; now prevented by pain. Knowing that soon, I'll be longing to feel the warmth of your body and voice. The darkness endless, my only comfort prayer. Lying in emptiness... Sign in to see full entry.

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Abundance of Love

With each rising of the sun; feel the warmth of the Universe. As the abundance of love surrounds you, hold out your hand and feel your Angels. Let the smile of each that you meet envelop you in the spirit of kindness. Lie in the grass so green and watch the clouds go by. Let the earth have all your woes and have not a care in the world. Know that you are special and a blessing to so many. It is your smile that warms our hearts; your touch that heals our soul. Receive the love and share it and... Sign in to see full entry.

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Window into Heaven

Hanging in this space of quiet peace as if suspended in midair. Weightless, floating, no burdens on my back. As gentle creatures pass me by, no burdens do they have. This must be a window into heaven; the home I left behind. The calming blueness that brings peace within my soul. The wonderous light and colors that flow from the surface above. Perhaps heaven is not a place way off. But deep within the ocean where no baggage can weigh me down. I simply let that suitcase go and watch it float to... Sign in to see full entry.

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Surrounded by the Light

There is a light that's faraway; Just beyond my reach. It's color indescribable; It's brilliance beyond compare. As I strain to touch the light, There is a voice within. Take off your shroud and let me shine. I've been here all the time. My light is indescribable; My brilliance beyond compare.skye 2006 Sign in to see full entry.

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skye01 Having Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Caring for my husband who had Parkinsons and Alzhiemer's and the changes we face each day. Meditations for stress relief and care for the soul. My journey through the grief and reaching acceptance. My life as I have grown in Love and Joy and Happiness with my family and friends.

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