Monday, November 9, 2009
Energy Flow Changes
Woke up at 4am and rearranged the bedroom to maximize the flow of Chi in the bedroom. My bed now has a solid wall behind the head and my mirror no long faces the foot of the bed. I actually have more room this way. I've stayed in bed all day to acclimate to the energy flow. The cats like it so I...
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Saturday, November 7, 2009
Changes
A full day. I finished all my shopping for the cruise this morning. I had found a black dress on line at jCPenneys but decided not to buy it then went to the Walmart and found a dress that looked almost exactly the same and was on sale for 11.00. I bought a glitzy rhinestone button to sew on it and...
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Wednesday, November 4, 2009
A Hard Day
Actually a hard week. I am so exhausted but cannot really rest. My balance is off and my mind is fogged and scattered. Guess I'll just rest and watch NCIS.
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Sunday, November 1, 2009
Feeling the Love
I managed to reach a state of bliss meditating this week. It was as if I connected to Richard and since I felt a strong connection of Love and have a very peaceful feeling descending over me and the house. I have been sorting Richards clothes and I'm finding it to be very exhausting. I guess it is...
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Tuesday, October 27, 2009
A Cruise
I've been invited on a cruise by my ex. It started with an invitation for May and I said probably and then he moved it to December. I was very conflicted and was not sure I am emotionally or physically ready to go. He came up to go out to eat with Brooke and Scott and me last weekend and I was going...
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Monday, October 26, 2009
Finishing the PaperWork
The funeral home called today and Richard's Death Certificates were ready. I filled out all the paperwork to assign insurance to pay for the funeral expenses. I then went to the Cemetery and picked out a background for a memory picture of Richard with one of my poems. I forgot his DD214 to order his...
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Sunday, October 25, 2009
Solace for the Grieving
I was reading an article on Beliefnet about offering support for the grieving. One of the tips was to bring soup and ice cream because having to chew food is overwhelming. I thought I was just going through a strange phase. Just the thought of chewing food is nauseating. I miss Richard so much....
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Spunky and Midnight
Weekend visitors. Halloween party tonight so I get to keep the grand dogs. It is so strange to just go out whenever I want to. Brooke called and invited me over to eat and watch TN and AL play before their Halloween party and it took me a few minutes to realize I could go without making plans for...
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Saturday, October 17, 2009
Releasing The Soul
I've watched you die day by day; these many, many months. Watching, waiting, praying for life, praying for a peaceful death and knowing death would come one day or night, announced or unannounced. The journey long and lessons learned before acceptance came. The fear of death kept you here each time...
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Friday, October 16, 2009
Unbelievable Proselytizing
I cannot believe the audacity of some people. Buffalo Ridge Baptist Church had the balls to send me a form letter based on Richard's obituary proselytizing their church with a pamphlet asking "How to Kow You Are Going to Heaven? and a schedule of their church services. Had they read the obituary...
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