Friday, November 20, 2009
A Restful Day
I couldn't quite get organized today so I just rested. Brooke was sick and had to go to the Dr. this morning and she has bronchitis again. The Dr. put her off for a week so she can rest and get well. She's had this for 2 months now. She called later in the day and said she had adopted an elderly man...
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Thursday, November 19, 2009
Last of the Funeral Details
I had to go to the funeral home again today to sign another assignment sheet for the insurance so it will pay for Richards funeral. I put the wrong number down the first time. I bought Joe's Christmas present. A framed picture like the one we used for Richard's Celebration of life Service. Then it...
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Wednesday, November 18, 2009
I Stayed Out After Dark
Tonight was the Thanksgiving Dinner at Church and after another afternoon of panic atttacks, I fixed two black forest chocolate pies and went. Again it was so nice to be welcomed back after my long absence. I realized tonight that I have never felt more a part and a belonging to something in a long,...
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Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Back On Track
It's amazing what a good nights sleep will do. I got my last rose planted today and got the house straightened up, dusted and vacuumed. My grief counselor from the VA came today and we had a good talk. I seem to have moved out of the shock stage into reality. I guess that was why yesterday was so...
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Monday, November 16, 2009
Bad Day at Black Rock
Panic Attacks. I hate them. Tomorrow will be a better day. Fibro flare, EFT helped calm the total body restlessness and calmed the pain.
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Sunday, November 15, 2009
Church
I went to church today for the first time since Richard got so sick we couldn't go. I grew up in this church since I was 3 years old. It really felt nice to be there. It was like putting on a warm, comfortable sweater. It was nice to be welcomed back so warmly. I had kept in touch through our...
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Saturday, November 14, 2009
Stuff
I got my closet put back together. Son, Blake, came over with cousin Shane and put my shelves back up. I managed to declutter and sort and put everything in a container so I can find it quickly. At least my stuff is not all over the floor and in the corners. Next week I need to get the Haven of...
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Thursday, November 12, 2009
A Wonderful Day
What a roller coaster! Anyway, I finished painting the closet and then I went to see my massage therapist and had a mineral salt and sugar scrub. Absolutely Heaven. My skin is so soft now and it was a great pain reliever. I felt Richards presence during my massage session. He held my hand. Mona has...
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Wednesday, November 11, 2009
I Passed The Test And
All I had to do was BREATHE. The question looming over me since yesterday was, how much strength do I have left? After twenty-four hours of numbness and shut down, with a single breath and a jacuzzi soak, the answer came to me. I don't have to have any more strength because "I" cannot change what...
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Tuesday, November 10, 2009
This Is A Test and Only A Test
I had to go get my passport card this morning. As I was pulling out of my driveway, I saw my KiKi lying dead in the middle of the road. He was lying exactly where my big Gray got killed. I had to call Blake to come get him. I couldn't do it. So I have to ask, how much Strength do I have left? There...
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