Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I'm an actress. For years I've been blessed with auditions for the choicest roles. i auditioned for the ingenue lead in everything I ever went out for. I even auditioned for the part of Juno. I starred in a few movies, was on a few TV shows, carried a few plays. I messed up. Was my own worst enemy.... Sign in to see full entry.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
shipped off
Last week my brother, 21, 6'1", attacked me. Beat on my car, then turned on me when I came outside to stop him. I called the police. I never call the police. My brother is autistic. He has Asperger's syndrome, which makes him a clinical asshole. The police found a care home for him, and my family... Sign in to see full entry.
Friday, May 15, 2009
gone
I'm in shock. Disbelief. My dad is gone and in his place is a single red rose, placed by the morticians on the pillow he was using just hours ago. That rose is my dad. I want to give that rose morphine every two hours, I want to feed it watermelon and chocolate ice cream, I want to hold its hand. I... Sign in to see full entry.
Monday, May 11, 2009
status
I woke up this morning to the whirring and pumping of the oxygen machine. My sister must have started my dad on it during the night. A week ago he was dragging himself around, talking, laughing. Now he's on oxygen, laying in a hospital bed, barely able to nod "yes" or shake his head "no" in response... Sign in to see full entry.