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Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Thirteen...

This post wasn't intentionally meant to be Thirteen... However, I come from a family which originated in the south. My grandmother, bless her soul, was always the one certain that trouble was coming when a bird flew through your window. She believed silverware falling to the floor meant unwanted... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, July 9, 2007

My regrets...(12)

I mailed letters... Every address that remotely matched his name, or his parents names, I kept and sent letters to. It was the Autumn of 2000 and I truly believed I would find him this way. I called every number I found and no one knew a thing about him. I pooled the very small amount of money that... Sign in to see full entry.

Surviving Blake... (11)

The day in which Blake proposed, we'd been in our silly little relationship for nearly a year. He sang humbly, across the phone line, the words to a song about completion and forever. It was charming. He was offering to buy me a plane ticket to be with him while he went through, yet another surgery.... Sign in to see full entry.

Sunday, July 8, 2007

Somedays... (10)

The journey to know one's self is usually wrought with anxiety and pain. Mine was no exception. I began to learn things about myself, things I'd never had opportunity to know before. I was twenty-three and learning things that I should have known ages before. I learned that I loved hot dogs at... Sign in to see full entry.

Friday, July 6, 2007

And then there was Blake... (9)

He did write me beautiful paper letters, for a time. Of course I always replied. After awhile though, we'd discussed all of the surface things in both of our lives and there wasn't much else to say. Neither of us were shallow people, and shallow conversing had never worked well. We lost touch and,... Sign in to see full entry.

Thursday, July 5, 2007

Self Reliance... (8)

Once I'd gotten pregnant and followed through with a marriage that no one had approved of, my foster parents decided to stop speaking to me. At the time, I'd seen their opinion as controlling and judgemental so I hadn't cared. However, as Matt and I settled into our fourth month of married life, I... Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

Firewords and Goodbyes...(7)

The world seemed less upset that I changed my major and more offended that I changed my school. I didn't feel that, considering my breakdown, I was in any condition to traipse across the nation. (especially when the inspiration behind that college choice had been to be nearer my father.) By summer's... Sign in to see full entry.

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

My mother's daughter... (6)

As Jacob and I walked back towards camp, my mind reeled from the talk I'd had with cory just moments before... "The thing about Jacob", he'd told me confidingly "Is he doesn't really know how to say what he is trying to say. Give him time. I can't tell you how he feels because that wouldn't be fair.... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, July 2, 2007

The begining of Jacob's role in a broken heart... (5)

I'd known Jacob for 5 years. We'd been nothing, then through odd circumstances we had become friends. He had let me down countless times. I knew to trust him very little, but I cared for him incredibly. I believed half of what he said, but when he looked intently at me with his furrowed brow and... Sign in to see full entry.

Saturday, June 30, 2007

Of buses and silence... (4)

Silence... Looking back, I realize that the ride to the station would be less than the average ten minutes. My memory though, of that trip, seems eternal. The silence was deafening, everything in me wanted to scream. My eyes seared into the back of his head, willing him to turn around and look at... Sign in to see full entry.

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