Life without my family

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Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Depressed caretaker. in the closit!

depressed in the closit I have a secret. Twelve years ago I found myself in my laundry room. It was getting daylight and I was trembling in a corner hiding beside my dryer. I had a couple of hours left until another day would begin. I had just lost my sister in a car accident, and now I have her... Sign in to see full entry.

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Thursday, November 12, 2009

Message from above

My sister & I had said that when one of us passed away we would let the other one know if we were with our sister Lois who passed away in 83. we would do that by the graveside by changing the weather. Yesterday was a gray rainy day, as the Preacher said the last prayer a ray of sunlight shot through... Sign in to see full entry.

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Monday, November 9, 2009

My road to college

I am finally going to college. WVSC. I am scared to death. It has took me years to get here. I started working in the club when I got out of grade school and that was all the education I had. 6Th grade. I remember going into my daughters room one day. She had sunk into this lonely world of her own.... Sign in to see full entry.

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Sunday, November 8, 2009

My sister's and I

Darkness was setting in, as my sisters and I were lost in the woods. We had playing in the creek and crawling through the tunnels. we decided to walk up the hill. The hills of WV are easy to get lost in. We had been lost for hours. my two baby sisters were starting to cry. the limbs of the trees... Sign in to see full entry.

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Friday, November 6, 2009

Wv drugs addicts earn more than working class "GOOD JOB GOV"

WV drug addicts earn more than working class! Good Job Gov Here in WV the best job is "NO JOB" If you are in your child bearing years you are entitled to free housing, paid utilities, food stamps, medical card. You child has the oprunity to start to preschool free and also school clothes valchers,... Sign in to see full entry.

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Stuck in the darkness

The club was dark and full of people. I looked up at the door and the man I had a date with came through, with him came in a short, dark haired man. I turned to my sister and said that is going to be my next husband. he was a worker from Kentucky. we connected wright away. His Friend cough on... Sign in to see full entry.

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Thursday, November 5, 2009

Holding my sister's hand

Darkness was setting in, as my sisters and I were lost in the woods. We had playing in the creek and crawling through the tunnels. we decided to walk up the hill. The hills of WV are easy to get lost in. We had been lost for hours. my two baby sisters were starting to cry. the limbs of the trees... Sign in to see full entry.

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Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Living in fear

All my life I have been frightened my men. I wonder if they understand the impact they have whenthey are putting the fear of God in us, As children, and as wemon. as I have been reading on here, It makes me wonder if you men have any idea the affect you had on us. How even if we are not with you,you... Sign in to see full entry.

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family Photo

This one one of very few Family photo's You can see the sadness in our eyes Sign in to see full entry.

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Monday, November 2, 2009

I need some advice

I am almost ashamed to ask this. It ways heavy on my mind. I guess after witnessing so many deaths, have a horrible vision of what this women was thinking. Ok. My father was transported back and forth buy a van to dialysis. He told me that a women started having chest pains on the way and the driver... Sign in to see full entry.

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About this Blog

I am working in healing and learning to live without my family. I keeped adairy as my family was dying. I find it to hard to read it so sometimes i just copy and paist. forgiver me if it gets a little personal, it is just my thoughts and feeling when I was going throught the deaths of my family. I love blogit, i get so lonely sometimes and with blogit I don't fell as though I am talking to myself. And as bad as this my sound it is good to read other peoples stories, It makes me feel that life could bemuch worse than it is. I am blessed I just have to find a way to except my mistakes that I can't changeting the fear of God in us, As children, and as wemon. as I have been reading on here, It makes me wonder if you men have any idea the affect you had on us. How even if we are not with you ,you are with us. it has been thirty years and I have never went a day without remembering the feeling of a gun next to my head. or running in a feild as I wes being shot at. The hours of darkness that

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