Early morning thoughts

Why do my words peak your interest so? What is it about them, about me, that scares you? What are you afraid of? I am no threat to you; never have been, never will be. I blog to release the "stuff" that accumulates throughout my days, my weeks; they should mean nothing to you- yet there you are,... Sign in to see full entry.

I dreamed you were here with me; that I was enveloped in the safety of you; a sea of arms and legs encircled me, holding me closely. The warmth of your skin is addicting... The softness of your touch- intoxicating.... and I lay here, lost, in the wonder and amazement of you. You shift, ever so... Sign in to see full entry.

In this blog "he" refers to my roommate, not the man I have recently written about in other blogs. I love my roommate to death, and he feels the "need" to "take care of me"; after the hell I have been thru in the past 2 years, I can understand why, but I am at a point where I am ok, and now i find... Sign in to see full entry.

I have been really good about sticking to my guns and not calling, texting or e-mailing him. i've cut off all contact, but last night was rough, I'm not gonna lie. I was working on my book and found myself incredibly emotional. And I needed him. I picked up my cell and punched in the #1, his number... Sign in to see full entry.

I can't believe I actually did it, I said goodbye and MEANT it. After much thinking I have come to the conclusion that I'm worth more than what he was willing to give me. I am a beautiful, strong, independent woman, and if he can't (or won't) see the qualities I posess then it's HIS loss, not mine.... Sign in to see full entry.

Well, "tomorrow" came and went and I still have no answers. I was so upside down from the "conversation" we had that I couldn't bring myself to answer his call. I know, pretty dumb on my part, but at the moment, it was all i could think to do. So anyway...It's pretty amazing to me how things seem to... Sign in to see full entry.

He stopped by, right on time, as always...I love his punctuality. He had been working on my computer(it had a virus) and came by to return it and to bring me a photo CD of our trip to california(I had been waiting for that cd for a few weeks already). I had been preparing myself for this... Sign in to see full entry.

Is it wrong to want something not to work out for a freind?? I've known him for amost 2 years now. We have been to hell and back together. When I was dealing with ex-husband issues, he was there, when he went thru his divorce, I was there. We have been one another's confidant,sounding board,... Sign in to see full entry.

the sun peeks thru my window bringing the dawn of a new day and I lay here almost paralyzed with exhaustion- The weekend was long and hard. The twins kept me busy, their never ending amounts of energy baffles me as I wonder where it comes from. We visited my favorite hiking spot, Squaw Peak, AZ- I... Sign in to see full entry.

The sun peeks thru the blinds and a sigh of relief escapes my lips. My mind, so full of so many emotions and thoughts proved to be too much to settle last night- so no sleep for me, yet again In the room I hear the deep breathing of my beautiful masterpieces; a sign that they have found their way to... Sign in to see full entry.