Saturday, June 14, 2008
When Possible Happiness comes a-knockin
SO my marriage is complete and utter SHIT. It leaves me exhausted and hating myself for being weak and spineless. I am faced everyday with the fact that I am not taking care of myself, which in turns leads to the fact that I am not taking proper care of my kids. I hate it and hate myself. Ok that's...
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Thursday, June 12, 2008
Raw Hamburger Patty Is Hard to clean up
last weekend was bad. I'm dreading this one. Too much time for the four of us to spend together. last weekend he got mad. MAD. Threw a raw hamburger patty at the wall. DId you know that that shit adheres to the wall? So gross. Although now that I remember it was buffalo and not cow, maybe the cow...
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Monday, December 24, 2007
I Hate Journals....It's too Much Pressure
For my birthday I received a new journal. It's beautiful. Black Leather, nice sized page to write on. I love it. However the thought of writing in it is scaring me. I see it sitting there, taunting me, calling me a chicken. To me a journal is the place you hold nothing back, it's the safe zone. My...
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Wednesday, September 12, 2007
I Changed The Name, Men, And Kids..........................................
All things that will be covered in this post. I figured since I have been so BAD about writing in my journal by hand, that maybe if I do it here it will have the same effect. i realize that then you all are privvy to things in my life you couldn't care less about, but hang on and let me see if I...
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Tuesday, August 14, 2007
IT'S TIME TO SHIT, I'VE GOTTEN OFF THE POT ENOUGH TIMES....................
As a girl, I thought I would marry a prince. I would have a beautiful dress, and he would be charming. My life definitely did not follow that script. I married too young, and too fucked up. The funny thing is, it was totally within my personality to do something like that. When I told my best friend...
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Thursday, May 10, 2007
Swinging? Ain't Just on the Playground Anymore.>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Swinging is an interesting concept. Married couples trading partners. Weird. I' have watched many episodes of Real Sex and researched the swinging lifestyle. Couples who are in love and committed to one another in every aspect of a relationship, except for sex. They even have swinging conventions....
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Saturday, May 5, 2007
TIT FOR TAT IS NOT A FUN GAME OUTSIDE THE BEDROOM
When two people who are as fucked up as my husband and I are are together bad things happen. We, and I know other people so it too, play a game of tit for tat. He hurts me so I hurt him, and vice versa. Don't do this. It isn't a fun game. Like I said outside the bedroom, no good comes of this....
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