Wednesday, October 19, 2005
STILL MENTALLY CLEARING THE PATH FOR SOMETHING NEW
Being at the beginning of a new relationship always brings to mind whispers of the past no matter how hard I try to push them away. It feels bit of each encounter becomes a part of who I am. Tonight I am thinking of one of the more volatile, though not violent, relationships that I’ve had. We had...
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DID I MEET ANY OF YOU LAST NIGHT?
You have all infiltrated my dreams now. Many of you joined me on a trip to Kansas City last night. I wish we had gone to the beach. I must have been on a limited time schedule. We met in a large open space. It was a mall, airport or convention center, I couldn't tell for sure. Apparently we gathered...
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005
THIS IS JUST GREAT, LOOKS LIKE I MIGHT BE GOING TO COURT!
What a day today has been. Today I mediated a very stressful meeting. I tried to calm a father who is frightened that his son will never want to see him again. At least that is what he wants us to believe. His son is eighteen now and his father has had very little to do with him until very recently....
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WHAT IT'S LIKE FOR ME
My breathing would quicken to a point of hyperventilation. My heart would beat so hard and fast that I just knew everyone around me could see it pulsing in my chest. My voice would tremble and I would become self concious to a point that I couldn't speak at all. Eventually my entire body would begin...
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Monday, October 17, 2005
WHAT I WOULD'NT GIVE TO SEE HIM SWEAT!
Ty Pennington is about a mile away from me right now!!! I happen to live very close to the local tv station that affiliates with ABC. Extreme Makeover Home Edition is in the area and he stopped by during the newscast to announce a special concert that they are doing tomorrow. Ugh! It is in the...
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I THINK SOMEONE'S TRYING TO TELL ME SOMETHING
I’ve mentioned briefly in other posts or at least one other that I believe in “signs.” All of the supernatural talk that’s been going on around here lately has made me think of this. It is has become common place in my life that when something good is about to happen I am given a “sign.” The sign...
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Sunday, October 16, 2005
THE MYSTERY OF A NEW MAN
So we talked on the phone for almost an hour. That's quite an accomplishment for someone like myself who hates talking on the phone. Usually after an hour on the phone with a man, I find out a lot. It doesn't seem like we said much though tonight. I'm a connecter. I like to dig deep into people and...
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THE THINGS THAT WE REMEMBER
I can remember what my nursery looked like. I know the name of my first babysitter. Details of places that I have been and places that I’ve lived are crystal clear in my mind. School dances and parties are as fresh as yesterday’s happenings. However, I have never been able to recite a line from a...
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Saturday, October 15, 2005
AFFIRMATIONS OR PERHAPS DENIAL.
I want to pretend this time around that I have no baggage. I want to pretend that the only love I have ever known has been pure, innocent and wonderful. In my little daydream I have never been hurt or capable of hurting others. I am full of confidence and expect only the best to come from things....
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Friday, October 14, 2005
DID I MEET THE ONE?
I survived the blind date. The drive there was nerve racking even after having enjoyed a glass of liquid guts. For the record, I did not drive. My friends that doubled with us picked me up. I really did feel like I just might throw up my lean cuisine lunch half way there but I managed to hold it in....
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