I Do, Adieu

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Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Rebirth

A fellow blogger used this term in a comment to my last post. Yes, that is it exactly: Rebirth, a breath of fresh air, energized, lightened load. And in the middle of it all, yes I am dealing with the grief as I would a death. But I feel ligther, freer. Even my friends have noticed. I know it has... Sign in to see full entry.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Cold and Distant

I guess this is all normal... but now he won't hardly communicate with me - he is very vague and secretive. I am feeling some lost and confusing feelings, but one thing is for sure - I don't miss him being around. I feel at peace (lost and confused, but at peace). Sign in to see full entry.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

"Don't You Hate This"

Today, stbx dropped kids off and we made arrangments for Easter. He started to leave and then paused. "Don't you hate this, making all these arrangements without each other?" I said, "Don't ask questions you may not want to hear the answers to." I wasn't meaning to be cruel... but I have actually... Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

The Boys Came Home

I went to my counseling session yesterday and on my way home my 9-year old called and wanted to come home. So I went by the stbx's house, visited for a bit and the boys came home with me. It was amazing to have them home. I did feel for stbx, cause I knew the lonliness he was experiencing with the... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, March 17, 2008

That one was tough

The boys came by tonight. It was great to see them. The younger one was going to stay with me, but he wanted to go to his dad's. That was tough, but I know those things are going to happen - to both of us. it was just so hard, cause he has always been a mama's boy. He thinks this is fun and a boys... Sign in to see full entry.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

He is moved out . . .

and the kids ae staying the night with him. I am home alone - it feels a little panicky. I am scared... but resolute in my decision. I don't know what to do first. I am off this week and the kids are still in school, as is he. So I have some time off - don't know what I should do with my time. Sign in to see full entry.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

We told the kids tonight

This isn't any fun. The five-year old doesn't get any of it. But my nine-year-old is not liking it one bit. Soon to be x moves out tomorrow. The kids are going to spend the night with him. Son is asking some really tough questions. Who wanted this? How long is this going to be? So if this is a... Sign in to see full entry.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Land of the Living

Well, today I started feeling better. Got out of bed; did some housework and played outside with the boys. It was exhausting and they have me on such strong antibiotics that I get sick to my stomach very easily. Soon to be Ex, rented a house in town and will start moving tomorrow. This is still very... Sign in to see full entry.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

still sick

I wasn't any better today and haven't been to work all week (I don't even remember the last time I used sick leave). Anyway, I finallly went to the doctor. He said I had a kidney infection, upper respitory infection and was dehydrated, and he wanted to put me in the hospital for a few days with an... Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

sick

Sorry I have been absent for a few days. There are some things going on with my mom and dad and had to go home to take care of some things. During all this, I haven't been feeling well... thought it was just a cold, but it is the flu. I feel awful. Sign in to see full entry.

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