Monday, September 26, 2005
All of my life I've been in hiding...does that sound familiar?...
and where has that led us? To some dead end street with nothing more, other than our shadow, to witness our defeat... Yes, we've all been there. Some of us are there right now, trying to break down the walls that surround them, suffocate them, as best they can. Struggling every day to open their...
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Sunday, September 25, 2005
To Think Two Years Ago I Almost Died....
At my own cause... The memory came crashing as I held my son playfully in air swinging him around...gazing into his eyes...taking in the sweet of his laughter...and I couldn't help but burst out crying...holding him tightly suddenly in my arms trying to say...I'm sorry. How can I ever make anyone...
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Thursday, September 22, 2005
What Happens To Our Loved Ones When They Die?????
If you've ever had the awful experience of suffering a close friend's/relative sudden tragic death, then you know well like I do, the many things that are left unsaid that now hang in thin air without release. I came across a song last night that choked me up inside, it being the very words I'd love...
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Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Here Are Twenty-One Steps On Life...Anyone care to add???
Author: Not Me! BUT GOOD ADVISE... ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully. TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other. THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want....
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Tuesday, September 20, 2005
A Nightmare On Elm Street or So It Seemed....
I think it's about time for me to stop watching Court TV...seriously! Last night I stayed up close to two in the morning watching Court TV's Case Files. Mind you I fell asleep watching it...all night tuned in unconsciously. Well there it began...my nightmare. I was part of a search group...with a...
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Thursday, September 15, 2005
Rekindling An Open Wound From The Past....
Would someone please tell me how to let go of this pain that binds me to the floor and drags me across in life? What is the definition of deception? deception n According to the dictionary: 1. the practice of deliberately making somebody believe things that are not true 2. an act, trick, or device...
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Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Beware of the homosexuals...you may catch their "disease" ....
09/13/05 If you associate yourself with one.............GIVE ME A Fu**ing BREAK! My boyfriend, stupidly enough knowing me, argued over a sour subject. I happen to pass by my neighborhood and see the "Boyscott's" sign...then to remember an incident that severely pissed me off. One of the Boyscott's...
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Monday, September 12, 2005
Consequences of Drinking/Drugging while DRIVING.....
Yesterday I watched the Discovery Health Channel, (yes, I'm a nerd, lol)and I was overwhelmed with what I saw... The program was about face transplants...yes...the entire face...taken from a dead donor and transplanted... like they now do for hearts, lungs, kidneys, etc. Thought possible now thanks...
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Friday, September 9, 2005
Celebrating One Month of Sobriety...
Today I went to the 8:30 pm meeting of Narcotics Anonymous. On September 3rd I at last accumulated what I for so long thought impossible...my first month of sobriety. I eagerly waited to pick up at last my green poker chip, the color symbolizing a month of sobriety. The poker chips serve to remind...
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Here's the important stuff..the end...leading to one month of sobriety.. :)
July 19, 2005 I remember the times of insanity engraved in my memory as the idiocy of active addiction. I can say I’ve done it all. Seen myself in complete devastation, crawling on the floor, looking for fallen bits of cocaine to lick off. Finding myself drenched in sweat, shaking, from the horrible...
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