Friday, July 1, 2005
Phase 1 is Almost Over : Zarrah's Birthday is Near....
Well we managed to get a rental car and the insurance company was figuring out what they would give us for the smashed van. It was all figured out before I headed to Mt. Sinai to deliver Zarrah. It would be up to my partner to try and find a half-decent van with less money than we had anticipated. I...
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Thursday, June 30, 2005
The CRASH!
Well I was scheduled to have my little girl delivered by cesarean section on Tuesday Nov 9th at 11am, as long as things continued along fairy smoothly. My kids decided that 'Zarrah' would be her name, and 'Zarrah' it is. It means beautiful princess, which of course my other little girls loved. My...
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Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Gathering Information and Getting Organized
The next 3.5 months were VERY eventful. I ended up stopping work when I was 24 weeks pregnant. Things had taken their toll on me, I had only gained 3.5 lbs thus far and wasn't sleeping well. I read as much information as I could on omphaloceles and kept my kids informed too. I went to Toronto for...
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Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Will We Be Able To Keep The Baby???
Well Monday finally arrived. It seemed like I waited a week, rather than just 2 days. Well my mom can down and we made it to our 10:30 Fetal Echo Cardiogram appointment at Sick Kids. I was really nervous because if there were problems with her heart that really increased the chances of having...
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Monday, June 27, 2005
Staying Positive....
Well my partner and I made it back to Collingwood just before it was time to put the kids to bed. We were exhausted but felt a little better with the little information we had. First thing I did was hug my kids, tell them I love them and gave them each a little 'suprise' that I picked up in Toronto....
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Friday, June 24, 2005
Starting to Make Sense of It All....
A nurse called me into Dr Windrim's office around 4pm. It's funny that the waiting wasn't bothering me at the moment. But as I realized the time my limbs felt really heavy and I dragged by butt of the chair and onto another one in his office. He came in moments later and asked if I wanted to wait...
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Thursday, June 23, 2005
Information Is Power...I Needed More...
The room was crowded with 7 or 8 doctors and specialists, along with my partner and I. I guess you should know that I'm generally pretty outgoing and friendly. My partner is the opposite, he is withdrawn, quiet and fairly anti-social. He's a triple minority. A Chinese/French/Canadian that grew up in...
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Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Looking For Answers....
My idea of fun was not getting up at 5:30am to drive 2.5 hrs to Toronto for some answers, but it had to be done. I wrote in my journal for part of the trip and then began writing down questions I had for the doctors. 'Will my baby survive?'....'While he be normal?'....'What should I be doing...
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005
THE WAITING GAME...
Luckily I didn't have to wait too long for the phone to right. Things were getting a little bit tense. My partner changed his tune and started in with the questions. I felt helpless. I told him to GO TO HELL! And the I didn't need him anyway. Of course he pretty much fired right back. Thankfully the...
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Monday, June 20, 2005
Power Struggle
The next while I struggled with my emotions. Trying to stay in control, not wanting to cry all the time. This was a huge challenge for me. I remember driving home from the Dr.'s office hardly able to see the road. An empty sick feeling inside me. Who ever said a heart couldn't really hurt? Well mine...
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