RECYCLING MY EX-BOYFRIENDS

ONCE!!!!!!!!! Here is the email.......... Okay- this is how I feel. I care about you a lot. I want you to be happy. At the same time—I don’t expect a major relationship. I don’t want a big future with you… I like what we have now minus the fact that you never know when you want to hang out or if you... Sign in to see full entry.

I can't wait! Oh yeah... the ex referred to is Drew... You know... the one that I continue to sleep with.... lol For all intents and purposes, we're dating... Only we're spending more time with our friends than with eachother.... which is great. We don't want to date really because he either has to... Sign in to see full entry.

I have been dating the same three guys for the past three years... jon, break up, jon, fuck buddies, break that off, fuck buddies, break it off again, joey, break up, screw jon, go BACK out with joey, break up, go back out, break up, date drew, break up with drew, date drew again, break up again,... Sign in to see full entry.

Okay, now that the whole break-up thing is over with-- I'm now single... and maybe kind of looking??? (Sean is coming over soon... hehehe) So I need a new name to express my relationship status while either being catchy -- or not too long... catchy but long blog names are okay... but long blog names... Sign in to see full entry.

Kim is here so I can't get into it entirely right now... butthen, I'm not so sure I want to. So here is the basic outline-- I made drew talk to me. I MADE him-- lol and apparently his dad lost his job and drew either moves with his parents to texas or moves in with colin. WHATEVER. He couldn't tell... Sign in to see full entry.

Here's the update. Drew and I are talking again... and I asked him out. Right now it's a no but he says its a possibility. It turns out he is going through a lot of crap at home at the moment... on top of being confused about 'US' I'm pretty much letting him slide at this point. Right now he is... Sign in to see full entry.

Panic attack... oh great... like i really need this right now.. okay shhhhhhh shhhhhhh calllllmmmm callllmmm down.... To make this easier.... I'm going to post our conversation later.... maybe peice by peice if we talk long.... I love you guys... I hope u love me... I NEED YOUR SUPPORT RIGHT NOW!!! Sign in to see full entry.

I thought I was fine with this... But this is just killing me. Why can't he at least TALK to me... we don't have to SEE eachother... I know that he's just going to be depressive and not even figure things out... Should I email him? Tell him how I feel?? That would be breaking a promise... but.... I... Sign in to see full entry.

And thinking and thinking and thinking... And I've made my decision. I'm going to wait for Drew. Now, this was a hard conclusion to come to because you always here how you aren't supposed to wait for someone... But this is unlike any break-up I've had. And I love Drew. I will give him all of the... Sign in to see full entry.

You're online again... but I'm not talking to you... What would I say anyway? I'm sorry, I can't help but talk to you because I'm a nutcase without any pride??? I wish I could tell you how much I care about you.. how I only want you to be happy.... not to worry about me... but I can't... This is... Sign in to see full entry.