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Thursday, June 30, 2022

You tell

YOU didnt ask, you preferred not to ask You told, why shouldnt i just let you do what you want Youve done it your entire life, you tell and then you do I answered the missing question and said no I told you what i was willing to do You threatened once again to punish the kids Ill make it up to them... Sign in to see full entry.

Tuesday, May 17, 2022

Crowds

Theres a crowd, you are surrounded by a crowd.... everyone behaves, its polite. The one that is mine chooses the crowd.... I miss being that ones main person but life changes and they grow up and choose new main people. You become the second person or third still important never gone but not the... Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, March 23, 2022

I was not

I broke the silence. I told people, lots of people my secrets. I told the dirty details of the crimes i committed. I shared my mistakes, my regrets, i spoke of the punshiments dealt to me for these things. Things that took place before our vows, not before us but before the vows, the rings, the... Sign in to see full entry.

Monday, March 21, 2022

I didn't know

Before you came into the picture there was a different version of me. Before he left me there was a different version of me I loved him, he was my one, he was supposed to be my last person I didn't know i had become so isolated, i didn't realize that i was so busy chasing what i wanted that i had... Sign in to see full entry.

Wednesday, March 16, 2022

A wall

The guilt trip you gave me was right on. I should have called more, made you feel like i couldnt live without you. I should have brushed my teeth before getting into bed, you shouldnt have had to smell my onion breath....it wasnt fair that you needed to point it out to me It wasnt fair of my friends... Sign in to see full entry.

Better to be dumb then wrong

Why am i sad? It was a simple mistake, a non issue. Hes not upset, well he was but for a millasecond... it wasnt intentional. Why was i bothered still? I wanted to cry, i left, i needed to go away before i cried. A mistake a tiny mistake, i paid literally to fix it, stressed out over it. Why the... Sign in to see full entry.

Thursday, September 16, 2021

Tonight

Its date night. My boyfriend and I are kid free one night every other week and tonight is our night. It has been an emotionally draining week for me. From an encounter with the ex, that left me reeling. To unsettling words for the legal system. Gathering our daughters clothing last night bought by... Sign in to see full entry.

My ribs hurt

My ribs hurt. They feel sucked in. Every time i get a message from you, my insides seize up. I feel like i'm holding my breathe, i immediately start shaking, and feel cold. Every inch of my being is tired. I'm shaking from head to toe. I want to go home, climb under my covers and hide from the... Sign in to see full entry.

He said

He said she wasnt scared. If he was so awful why hadnt she called the cops sooner. He said she told him, it wasnt so bad. She had a secret She lied She told on herself He yelled He hit me He said words He stalked me He installed cameras He put in a tracker He called over and over again He showed up... Sign in to see full entry.

Memories

You are in the room, he is asking questions, you are answering. Your worst nightmare has become a reality. Your secret has been exposed. He is mad, he throws you on the bed, he throws your phone against the wall. He takes your phone and leaves... an hour passes. He comes back, you are in the room,... Sign in to see full entry.

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