My Companion, My Pain

I am having a lot of trouble blogging tonight, well the last few days really. My hands are so swollen and painful. I am really disappointed about this, because I have so many things written that I want to enter on my site. Oh well they will keep. I will do what I can do. Sign in to see full entry.

When my psoriatic arthritis kicks in all my joints swell. It is hard to type right now. This started two days ago and has gotten worse. The nice thing is now I know what's happening to me. In past years I didn't know and that was frightening. I can't knit, write or type. My elbow hurts every time I... Sign in to see full entry.

Well if you have a bad day, wait, tomorrow will be better. Not always but so often I have found that if I can hang in there, it's better tomorrow. But when I'm in the middle of a crash I can't imagine it ever being over. I do know that if I would not be so determined not to take all my pain meds I... Sign in to see full entry.

It is getting harder to work. Some times I'm not sure how much longer I can do it. The thought of having to give up what I love so much breaks my heart. I have to eat lunch as quickly as I can so I can take pain meds and try to sleep a while on my lunch hour. When I'm lucky I can get an extended... Sign in to see full entry.

I am trying to take one day at a time. However when I feel bad the night before I am not feeling to positive about what the next day will bring. I am making plans for some fun this summer though and that is encouraging me to work towards feeling better. I want to go camping and my sister is planing... Sign in to see full entry.

Hi Everyone I am starting to get back on my feet. A week ago tonight I started to feel like I had the flu. I was going to call work and tell them that I wouldn't be in on Tues. But told myself to "Buck Up ". Tues morning I woke up and tried to ge out of bed. I was disoriented and dizzy. I had to... Sign in to see full entry.

All day I tell myself to get out of this funk. I go through all the thoughts that should make me well. Positive thinking etc. I force myself to get out of bed in the morning and talk myself out of calling in sick. I smile at my family and remind myself how much I have lost by excepting my condition.... Sign in to see full entry.

It started out to be a good day. I had stayed up late so I didn't get up until about 11 am. Understand that I have an ageing labrador so I get up several times a night right now. My mom told me to go to a movie her treat, so I went off to the 12:30 with out eating because I had no time. I went to... Sign in to see full entry.

Hi everyone. It has been a tough month. I am fighting depression along with everything else. I have a lot of pain this time a year. We have had a lot of snow and I enjoy going out to walk in it and take pictures. The problem is, for what ever reason my hips and lower back are causing me a lot of leg... Sign in to see full entry.

It has been a long rough week. The pain is increasing and the fatigue is returning. I often spend my lunch hours sleeping and wake up feeling worse then when I went to sleep. I can hardly wait until thursday. I get another infusion then and I hope the results are as positive as the last one. We'll... Sign in to see full entry.